#performance bts

Im scared of loosing to everyone else. Im scared of not being first. Im scared of not being the best Im scared of slipping and falling Im scared of everything breaking apart Im scared they'll leave right away Im scared they'll tell me to stop playing Im scared they wont listen Im scared that I'll stop Im scared I'll fall Im scared I'll break Im scared of the anger Im scared of the disappointment Im scared they'll see through me Im scared they'll hear everything go wrong But most of all Im scared of myself -I can't reach. I can't fly. I can't jump to touch the sky. -I can't see enough. I can't hear enough. They'll see im not the real stuff -I'm gonna slip. I'm gonna fall They'll leave me, they'll all -Im gonna bleed. It's gonna hurt. I'll think of the things they would blurt. -Just for this time, im not gonna lie But I could already hear them sigh. -That was my best, I do admit Im sorry it sucked and seemed like bullshit. -My mind hurts. If only they knew That all the compliments just go through. -I can't hear anymore, I can't even see What has the looks of their eyes has done to me. -I know they won't understand as they've never been through this, But all they could tell me is of that one miss. -I cant even ask for help, I cant even put up a fight. Just tell me once and I'll forever be out of your sight. -I've closed myself in. Ill never be that virtuoso With all these feelings I now work solo. -i wont let them in. I no longer have the will Of dissapointment, anger, disgust and disintrest I've had my fill -i give up. Leave me alone. I'll get better, but from here I'm on my own. -Forever will be when I'm satisfied, but until then, Goodbye