nb culture is, while minding your own damn business, being informed in a babying and condescending tone that "excuse me maâam... miss.. the ladies work boots are over on the other side"
nb culture is being so anxious and tense you end up unintentionally snapping at the condescending employee because you've been misgendered like 800 times this week alone and were worried about this exact thing happening, as you do anytime you walk into the "wrong" clothing section - even though you're in exactly the section you're supposed to be in thanks - or really any store in general for that matter because its never a good experience, and you can only take so much before it drags you down into a super fun pit of depression, even more self hate than normal, suicidal ideation, and all your best self destructive tendencies Â
nb culture is coming home and venting to your s/o, who doesnât always say the right thing and in fact sometimes says something so wrong itâs shocking and who doesnât really understand but tries his best..most of the time because he does love you itâs just literally every other person heâs ever met has been cis and though heâs known about your i.d. since before yâall started dating youâve only started demanding respect and actively talking about it in the last year because up until that point everyone (but him) in your life told you you didnât deserve the respect and that if you acted âoutâ he wouldnât like you and âweâre still gonna call you a girl anywayâ, before inevitably crying because there is zero reason for trips out in public to be this goddamn draining
there is zero reason for existing to be this goddamn draining
picking out clothes to try on shouldnât make me want to crawl in a hole and die
trying on shoes shouldnât get me dirty fucking looks from Suburban McFuckoff
the thought of going to the store in the first place shouldnât be both a little bit exciting and something that fills me with dreadÂ
stepping over the threshold into a store?? yeah that shouldnât feel like iâm physically hitting a wall of tension and anxiety and i shouldnât feel like iâm goddamn drowning every time iâm in publicÂ
existing but a little to the left shouldnât offend people AND YET
fuck this town and everyone in it.
