oddity was a very essential being, or state, or whatever the fuck he wanted to be defined as, but i think he's the only reason we got through the beginning of our psychosis
his entire existence was based on our existence as a schizophrenic, or as a bipolar person. but always surrounded by that. his existence was episodic and always noticable
it's identity was fragmented and based on any immediate thought or absolutely nothing. oddity was a collective of everything and a series of inconsistent states. he wasn't anything but he just existed. he was terrified, he was depressed, he was null, and he was trans
it existed at the absolute most of everything and that was what he was
he experienced everything so we could exist after
everything i struggle to remember is behind a wall of 'i didnt experience that.'
those were his thoughts and his delusions and any breakthrough i had would seem irrelevant because i didn't go through that
it was his existence.
it was it's state
