#peachysanders

i’ve been at an extreme low. i confronted my parents about suicidal thoughts. i’ve had multiple instances where i’ve been so paranoid that i couldn’t contact anyone, due to my fear of them hating me. i’ve been admitted to a psychiatrist. i’m in the process of switching schools, which trying to pass summer school.

the latest issue? i’ve been manipulated by someone i thought i could trust. i froze. i didn’t know what to do. i’ve wanted to vomit since that day. i can’t concentrate. i still pass him in the halls, & i still pass him in my neighbourhood. in person, i don’t blink twice. inside, my heart is begging to turn back the clock. every part of me is fighting with myself, because even i don’t believe it’s really a big deal. is it?