#pcosfertility

When I was younger and I heard people say they have anxiety, I often think oh, they are just being dramatic, or come on, it can't be that serious.

It wasn't until I experienced anxiety myself that I found out how scary and confronting it can be. I don't really know how my anxiety started but my earliest memory of it was when I was diagnosed with PCOS. I remembered my heart sank and I felt miserable being told by the doctor that I might not be able to have kids like a normal woman could and that is something that I'll just have to accept. On top of that, the doctor also mentioned that this is a condition for LIFE and there is no real cure for it except just managing the symptoms which are basically taking medications for a really really long time! I went home after that, cried for many hours, and researched about PCOS for many months following my diagnosis. I couldn't sleep and I couldn't eat well because I was so picky about what was going into my body knowing that food could upset my hormones. I would feel so tensed and worried when I see a new pimple popped up on my face or when another strand of hair fall on my shoulder, my clothes, the table, and anywhere where I could visibly see it. I would look down on the floor around my house and collect all the hairs which have fallen and count how many hairs I have lost on the day. Sounds crazy right?

I would make excuses not to go out with friends because I was ashamed of my skin and myself. I felt sad and lonely for a long time. I didn't think anyone would understand what was happening to me and how I was feeling? Everyone around me seemed so happy with their lives. They'll probably just tell me 'don't worry about it. you'll be ok' or 'it's not the end of the world. it's not cancer or anything too serious.' I know because I've been there. Not only do you have to deal with the physical changes of your body but also the physiological aspects of it.

My anxiety became worse when I turned 30 and I had to get treatment for anxiety and insomnia. I have learned a lot of good tips and ways to deal with anxiety during my sessions with my counselor. Breathing is a very good tip for anyone out there facing anxiety. Take 3 deep breaths to reset and I used this every time I start to panic and worry.

It feels like a heavy cloud that follows you around, doesn't it?

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14/06/2021

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content topic - pcos & my "symptoms", hospital appointments

okay so about a month ago i had a hospital appointment for an ultrasound as i told my doctor i wanted to be tested for pcos given that my mum has it and i have similar issues to her, them being thick body and facial hair and it being almost 2 years since i had a period.

Bloodwork showed elevated total and free testosterone. I’m not entirely sure what that means. I’ve researched and it says it could be caused by PCOS but I have no other symptoms than the lack of period.

I instantly feel slightly down when getting results with items out of range and ask myself questions like Why does this have to be so hard? Why can’t my body just work right?