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First day as a qualified teacher, teaching back to back lessons and man am I exhausted! My classroom echoes so I end up having to raise my voice quite a bit. Any suggestions to help combat this would be much appreciated!

On the health side. Again, I’ve been so busy today I haven’t actually had time to eat anything that’s bad for me! I had a panini at lunch which won’t have been amazingly healthy, but on the plus side went over my step goal today which makes up for the lack of doing so yesterday. And because I was feeling stressed out and exhausted, when I went to buy school supplies I fell in to old habits and bought some chocolate, but I didn’t end up eating it! I did, however, end up buying an iced macchiato (not Starbucks, a cheaper one) because I seriously needed the caffeine hit before mosque. Sadly it’s got to about 4 hours after drinking it, and I think now is when it’s kicking in. Better late than never, seeing as I have a tonne of work to do!

So yeah, the only thing that’s been unhealthy in terms of sugar content is the iced macchiato, but that kinda needed to be done. Mosque is only two days a week this year (which is both good and bad, I think) but that means more time for the school work (which, again, is both good and bad). It also means that there’s an extra two and a bit hours in the week where I’m not as busy as I should be, so hopefully no binge or junk eating during that time.

Sorry for the rambles! It’s been a long day and needed to get it out somewhere. Don’t really like talking to the other staff members about my health mission, and then don’t fancy talking to my parents about work either. Feel like work should stay at work! I know in terms of workload, especially during an NQT year, that’s pretty much not possible but I’m trying to minimise what I bring home in order to maintain that work-life balance as best as I can.

Rambling over. Have a lovely night/evening/afternoon/morning depending on where in the world you are and what time you’re reading this

Oh my word today has been a struggle!! I've been so hungry all day, and it's been actual hunger, not boredom or stress hunger, which has made it all the more difficult not to eat everything in sight! Like right now, I've just eaten dinner and I've drank three glasses of water and my portion was slightly bigger than usual. Yet I'm still hungry! That's absolutely ridiculous. I think it's mainly because I didn't eat much yesterday but wow. I ended up having a chocolate orange brownie but even then I wasn't happy with it, which just proved I wanted actual, real food. God knows what's going on with my body!

Breakfast: 2 boiled eggs (150 calories) and Shreddies (200 calories)

Snack: 1/4 of a homemade pizza slice and a pink lady apple (250 calories)

Lunch: Vegetable rice and lamb (350 calories)

Snack: Chocolate orange brownie (200 calories)

Dinner: Vegetable flatbread (500 calories)

Total: 1650

After being so good and not overeating on junk food the past few days I fell off the wagon today and ate a whole box of cookies. It took me over my calorie limit for the day by quite a bit but my breakfast was a bowl of Shreddies and I had a salad for lunch so it isn't the be all and end all. I've been trying to make up for it by drinking lots of water and I've taken a walk just now which has put me in an overall calorie deficit for the day (providing I've put everything correctly in to MFP!). Hopefully go the gym tomorrow.. I did set an alarm this morning but not sleeping properly the past few nights caught up with me I think and just needed an extra few hours in bed.

It's always the early evening time period that gets me. Hopefully it won't be as bad next week with the teaching at school and mosque starting again. Kinda think I miss being so busy to be honest! (I'll regret saying this in a week but oh well...)

I'm currently watching the football and I'm fuming with how poorly we're performing. My mentor might have been on to something when he said rugby is better than football.

Today's entry. I've been quite good, but because I was fasting I'm quite a lot under both my calorie and water intake. It's definitely helped me eat healthier but back to a full day of eating tomorrow so the challenge will be trying to be good then!

Breakfast (pre-dawn meal): Bowl of shreddies with almond milk and a glass of water

Dinner (post-fast meal): Half a pear and half an apple, lamb kheema with a chapatti (600 calories)

Also tried a quarter of one of the doughnuts Mum and Dad bought back. Went for one that had no chocolate and just a teensy bit of jam and decided it was okay but overrated. It tasted more like a pastry type dessert ad opposed to what I'd usually expect a doughnut to be.

Not that most of you need to know this but Mother Nature decided to pay me a visit today which I feel like explains why I felt so drained the other day, as well as my cravings. And the cramps today have been absolutely awful, as well as the nausea. I'm proud of myself for actually feeding myself two proper meals considering I feel terrible. I've just woke up from a 2 hour nap and all I want to do is go back to sleep. I always see it as a blessing in disguise because of my pcos but man being a woman sucks! Any who. Here's today's entry.

Breakfast: Scrambled egg on toast (400 calories)

Lunch: Chicken and rice (400 calories) + 2 mini doughnut bites (200 calories)

Update: Ended up having a chocolate cookie. Everything in moderation!

So I was fasting today and honestly thank god I was because the sugar cravings I had were intense during the day! Did end up buying a doughnut but as of 9.30PM it remains uneaten so small victories! So for today I'm going to split it in to the pre dawn meal and then Iftar. Honestly it wasn't the healthiest because we had guests in the evening but I could have done worse - everything I ate in the evening was homemade so I knew exactly what was going in to it!

Pre-dawn meal: Shreddies and strawberries (300 calories)

Iftar: 3 dates

3 samosas + 2 potato pastry type things (400 calories)

2 slices of homemade pizza (400 calories)

Total: 1200 calories.. means I can have a sweet treat 😜 here's hoping for a loss sometime soon because I haven't had one in weeks! I wore a dress today though and it fits better round the chest which is nice, even though I'm not entirely sure how that's possible.

Didn’t end up fasting today because I didn’t get up for the pre-dawn meal. It would have meant 24 hours without food which, to be fair, I have done before but didn’t feel like it was a sensible idea to go ahead and fast. Anyways. Here’s what I ate:

Breakfast: Cornflakes

Snack: Cereal Bar and Rich Tea Biscuits

Lunch: Chicken wrap with salad and spiced pepper rings

Snack: Two apples with peanut butter 

Dinner: Mozzarella Burger with Chips

The mozzarella burger was interesting. It had soy meat which tasted okay but left a bizarre aftertaste in my mouth at the same time. Also they were advertised as mozzarella burgers which was the whole reason I bought them because I thought cheese, there were two tiny pieces of cheese in the whole thing! Slightly disappointed. Might find a recipe though and make them when I’m back at uni which lets me add cheese to my heart’s content :P