#paxrants

because I see other canines on here saying they are always very protective over their stuff and it bothers them a lot

Can’t lie I’ve been in the tank. I don’t think I’ve been sick like this in years.

I take good care of my body, I’d like to think. But regardless of actual health statistics, I get about 2-3 migraines a year, and have some sort of viral infection several times each year. That’s just par for the course really.

But my house got sick this past week and for the first time in a long time I got it, and got it the worst. On the way back up Hopfully. But, I breathe easy knowing that tomorrow is Sunday.

I hate to say it. But cannabis is helping me get back on my course. “Year 2 daily” thought the break was nice….. actually I would talk about this but I don’t think about it or tack it enough, though I do, I could do better. “Intentionalsmoker”

I get that everyone is entitled to there own opinion. But I feel like to many people forget that opinion is not fact.

Just because you say, or feel a certain way doesn’t mean that it’s correct. You’re silly expressing how you “feel” if the opinion was based on facts you wouldn’t use such targeting, activating, or “rage bait” language.

I just want to be in a position where I don’t have to associate with people I don’t want to. from my very first memory, I feel like I’ve had to fit in ever where I’ve been. And sometimes abused just stay in these places. I knew these things are wrong. I always have. Too powerless to speak up and I didn’t even have it very badly. I’m sorry if it is currently or has been worse. These thoughts, emotions, feelings, and physical pains can last…

I feel from people who come from abusive pasts, I know how confusing it is. When you get the opportunity, don’t be fucking scared, because fuck these people. If you’re still alive you’re built for more. So compassionately, openly, swiftly, FUCK THEM.

I try and keep a morning routine, not the kind you see on TikTok.

Let the dog out while the water boils.

Sip my tea while I exhale smoke.

Savor my tea as steaming hot water runs down my back.

The gaps between parasocial and alone are so large.

Some people are getting hundreds of interactions.

Some people are getting none.

How does anyone really even know what’s going on? How do you make friends when most people are not who they say they are. Or will say/do anything for attention.

Finding people with similar interest only works if you’re willing to create, protect, and consistently work on it. That effort hardly goes both ways. Most people can’t even be bothered with the bare minimum.

People have real life to deal with. Actual consequences for the way the use their mind or their time. Why spend it on someone internet weirdo. The crazy part is some people do?

Why would anyone waste that on someone from the internet? People from the interment either want you to have the same opinion as them or “show them something”

I get that music has always been a really large part of my life. But rediscovering music from my early teenage years is so interesting. Old feeling with new perspectives. Oh so powerful. With time comes experience.

If only he could see me now.

People around me are really starting to find out how capable I am, have been, and will always be. It’s way deeper than you think. “And not on no corny shit”

If I’m keeping it a band, December went by way too fast….

But I think that’s alright this year. Let’s not dwell too long on the end of the year, though my favorite month, keep our eyes up.