#paula posts

R.I.P Roscoe; I am late to the party but I heard the news of what had happened.

You did let out a scream while you kneel onto the cold; hard floor where you not only screamed in pain but while cleaning the room by picking up both your laundry and his laundry, you let out a painful scream while experiencing a painful cramp just as when you also noticed how your favorite pair of surf shorts also has the dark maroon stain of blood had suddenly stained your favorite pair of surf shorts where you had wore it every single day both at home and outside of your home when you are going to somewhere nearby your favorite beach to either Diamond Head Beach Park or to any of the Waikiki beaches where you not only get to surf everyday just like everyone else who not only get to truthfully live in the island of Oahu, Hawaii but also but also the people whom they also lived in the area of Waikiki as well where it is only located next door from the capital of Hawaii, Honolulu.

As you let out a blood curdling scream; Logan who is now putting the laundry into the washing machine; has heard your blood-curdling scream as you started to kneel down to the floor just before you got into a fetal position where you started to sob as you felt as you couldn't move helplessly while lying down in a fetal position on the floor.

"Y/N! Y/N; are you okay?" He asked you while you continue on sobbing as you hugged your knees in the same fetal position where you are currently at now.

"No . . . no, I am . . . I am not feeling okay; Logan . . . I am not feeling okay at all!" You screamed while wailing at the same time just as whereas he lets you bury yourself into his chest while you continue crying distressingly from the unexpected period it has arrive at the final week of the month while he strokes your back softly as your screams and shouting had turned into sobbing and sniffing while Logan had hugged you in his pair of arms.

While shushing you, he said "It's okay, it's okay; Y/N; it's okay." as he whispered it on repeat instantly just as when you think of it as a mantra.

As you continue on sobbing; meanwhile Logan didn't left you until you finally calmed down and said "Logan, there is something I needed to tell you something."

"Sure, no problem; what is it: Y/N?"

"You know I do have my period on arrival, right?"

"How do you know?"

"I don't know, all I know is that a few days ago; I did noticed a small trickle of the dark maroon stain on one of my inner bottoms while I am wearing it but by the time when I wore my favorite pair of jeans; the fit and flared version of a pair of jeans right?"

"Uh-huh, is it from True Religion or Express, right?"

"No, silly; they are an affordable pair I got it from Ross, remember? Originally they are from Gap from their spring-summer collection  with their brand new dark denim washes and all . . ."

"Uh huh, what had happened?"

"I'd think . .. if you did noticed there is a deep maroon colored type of stain then this is where my period had unexpectedly arrived and now the blood flow had became heavier by the day."

"Oh no, did you use tampons or anything else?"

"No, I used a clean piece of a daytime sanitary pad which I did managed to clear it up as I toss it into the sanitary pad bin and honestly; I didn't realized it had gotten onto both one of the pair of inner wear I wore it and then  . . . "

"And then what happened?"

You suddenly break down tearfully and said "And that's when I found out the blood flow had gotten even more intense; oh, Logan . . ." You said while you started sobbing again as you bury into his chest where stroked your back even more.

"Oh, Y/N . . ." He said while he continues stroking your back and lets you cry while you continue on sobbing; you felt as if your period does have arrived unexpectedly and although many would have said it is mother nature is the one to be blamed for; meanwhile for you, you blamed yourself for how your period had arrived.

"I . . . I'm sorry, Logan." You whispered to him    while he continues on to stroke on your back as your tears started to dry up and your eyes had looked stained after hours and hours of crying.

He shushes you again and replies: "It's okay, Y/N. It's okay. What is important now is that you are doing truthfully okay now and this led me to another question; 'Are you feeling truthfully okay now?'"

Although you couldn't say anything but all you can do is to definitely nod in silence while you bury yourself into his chest where you now can smell his signature scent of the combination of the natural salt water; the Davidoff Cool Water Cologne he would wear it sometimes after a shower which is non-essential for him but you can smell it on him mixed with your tears that you have a tearful meltdown earlier.

"Do you want me to help you out? You know go see a doctor where maybe we can speak to them about your menstrual period."

You nodded quietly while he helps you to get up and asked "Are you feeling truthfully okay now?"

No response; all you can do is to shook your head by not saying anything at all.

"Okay, I'll complete your laundry; go take a warm shower and get changed while I finish up the laundry plus do you have any bigger sized sanitary pads left?"

"Only a few but I am running a low about that though . . ."

"Oh, okay; I'll say let's go somewhere to do some shopping after your visit's to the doctor's; okay?"

You nodded while you picked up some of the clean clothes you can get from a drawer where you got a set of clean clothes and a clean towel where you decided to not only head into the shower while sitting down at the shower seat where you not only hold the shower handle as you let the warm water wash off all of the internal pain you have and yet when you squat onto the bathroom floor; you did noticed how there are remains of blood everywhere.

You wanted to let out a scream but you couldn't; you don't want him to hear your scream again however with all of the blood remains coming out; you wanted to scream again but you couldn't. 

You felt too scared to do it so but Logan called to you: "Hey, Y/N: I have told the neighbors you do have your period arrival thus if they hear your scream; then this is where I confirmed to them that you are having your period right now thus if they don't know, I did kindly told them to do a long research on menstrual period on a wahine rather than being ignorant and misogynistic about the menstrual period you and every other wahine has." He called out to you while you continue squatting on the wet shower floor just before you let out another blood curdling scream out of frustration and anger just before you sit down on the wet shower floor and started crying without even thinking about using your pair of bare hands to either cover your face or wipe the tears away.

After all, the warm water coming out of the shower handle had already washed away all of the pain; blood and the tears you have to experience it all in just one morning.

Plus after a shower, you instantly put on your clean set of clothes plus also taking out a new piece of sanitary pad and place it on your clean pair of inner bottoms just before you slip on your favorite pair of outer bottoms which is a stretchy pair of cargo pants plus a favorite comfy and a classic graphic tee shirt where you decided to wear your favorite graphic tee shirt plus a black F1 cap you got it back at the Miami GP where you not only go to the cable cars with a group of wahines whom they have been close friends with you for a long while ever since you had met them during your first day at HPU and also during your first day working at the 24-7 Kaimuki Bookstore where you did met both Alison 'Ali' and also Simona 'Mona' whom they are your co-workers at first where you tried to keep your relationship all business but after a while; the three of you had form a close friendship plus from there onwards; the rest is history.

"Hey, Y/N: are you ready to go?" Logan ask you while you put on your pair of white ankle socks and a pair of your favorite running shoes from Asics.