#passitby

Is it really okay that some days I feel like I am falling apart; distancing myself from reality and other days I can be the girl you can't knock down? Majority of the days i notice the locking myself away from interactions with others because I simply do not know when or what emotion will take over that day. What thoughts would come into reality.  I house so many scars and stories that others would never expect one person to contain. I want to branch out and let the emotions run wild as they please  just to see what would happen, but I still shield others from seeing a fragile me. I hate the feeling and then again I find it unexplainable. It drives me insane.. Yet... I do not really have the desire to change it because at these moments I truly feel human like I exist and others just obtain the surroundings outside of my body. 

Sometimes I can't help wanting to ask others "Do you feel like you are looking through a dream where others reside and feel, but you fear that one day you will wake up and there would be nothing as if nothing ever happened?"

Sometimes, I think I have an overly active mind. Some may say I'm crazy.