#passingleap

∯ I still and might always love you, and I hate it.

∯ you make me uneasy, but my paranoia and distrust gets the better of me sometimes.

∯ I don’t know where I’d be had it not been for you. thank you, old friend.

don’t blame me for that…

Eyes: What has changed from how you see the world now and how you saw it 5 years ago?

five years ago, I was in the dark. so... I don’t have a good answer for that. I didn’t see the world as anything when I was there. my mind was a scattered mess of panic and dissociation and a crazy amount of trauma. when all you have is mental break after mental break after mental break for... years... it’s hard to put things into perspective.

before the dark, though, I was... disillusioned, I think. I didn’t see things in the right light. but I was young and still a brat. not that I stopped being a brat, but I was more of a brat. I was kicking bad guys ass and I never really thought about why they do what they do, or why I was the one stopping them. it was just me and GA. it had been just the two of us for years. so I never really questioned it. I do now. I see better now why people go to the lengths they do.

Nails: When you’re feeling vulnerable, do you become more defensive or do you take the offensive and lash out?

ooh good smell.

Nose: What is your favourite scent?

:( i’ll miss you