#paramour rambles

obsessed with this dm i just got from one of my random friends on my friends list. i don't think i'm doing anything particularly strange or weird with his build so like. idk what they could possibly mean by "wth is going on" and it's hilarious

the other day i went to twitter bc i'm fucking starving for avencae content and i was desperate, and ye they're doing good stuff over there. fun stuff. unfortunately, i stand by my original determination, which is that avencae shippers are not portraying that freak shit enough. where is the weird and bizarre? where is the fixation on death? are we forgetting that aventurine is a DEEPLY disturbed man and we really ought to be digging into his psyche?

i found like ONE piece that had me going oh you fuckin get it but alas, i am otherwise still left starving on the side the road, unable to prepare meals for myself even as it's obvious i gotta do everything myself. all the more reason to go hard on my art studies/practice, i guess...

also completely random but i started wondering if there's like, a height difference people tend to gravitate towards between them? and i couldn't really make a conclusive determination but it does seem like people have aventurine be the taller one most of the time, which made me laugh bc i went the opposite way lol, though, that difference is VERY small and would easily be offset by aventurine wearing thick souls or heels. this is a meaningless tangent but that's the nature of my adhd ass

Goretober Day 10 - "Teeth"

Decided to do something simple for myself today, since yesterday was a pretty complex one. So, I picked "teeth", and what better model for such a prompt than a lovely daiten? Also makes the drawing easier because I can draw daiten heads in my fuckin sleep by now. However, this is the first time I've managed to get the double rows of teeth to look right, so that's fun!

i think i gotta make a new canvas b4 my art program explodes...

2025 Goretober Collection

Aaand that's a wrap! Here is (almost) every piece I completed for this month; a few days were skipped for one reason or another, but I usually tried to incorporate the skipped day's prompt in whatever I worked on the day after. Definitely learned so much through this challenge and I'm really proud of myself for sticking it through to the end.

Considering NaNoWriMo is no more, I'm glad I had this to kinda "fill the space". It feels strange sitting here, on November 1st, without any reason to be racing to hit a word count. I'm sure in future years I'll do my own personal "wrimo", because I do like the challenge, but on the other hand I've spent this entire year writing a "novel" of sorts, and I think it's the most I've written in a single year in my entire life, so... perhaps setting myself a 50k word count goal right now would be overkill, haha.

and i've been productive in other areas of my life (bc writing fic isn't the one and only thing in my life lol) such as the community support adopts i've been designing, which are going to a good cause, and YET. oof. it's been rough