it was a blueday

Last portraits of the year

"...you must say words, as long as there are any, until they find me, until they say me, strange pain, strange sin, you must go on, perhaps it's done already, perhaps they have said me already, perhaps they have carried me to the threshold of my story, before the door that opens on my story, that would surprise me, if it opens, it will be I, it will be the silence, where I am, I don't know, I'll never know, in the silence you don't know, you must go on, I can't go on, I'll go on"

--- Samuel Beckett, in The unnamable

Before the accident.

31st December, 2021.

"One must accept the fact that others don't see what you do."

---- Louise Bourgeois

2019

“each hour I wake with a different loneliness”

---- Judith Baumel