rereading some of fabiniku to find where i left off, and i didnt even notice this panel on my first read but its making me feel insane.

an Evil Schemer told Tachibana she was probably jealous of Jinguuji, and Tachibana thinks back to her first memory of Jinguuji saving her.

.....what is being covered up here? what feeling did Tachibana really have towards Jinguuji? Probably attraction/love (if it were admiration, she wouldn't have to cover it up).

Also, if i'm right and Tachibana has liked Jinguuji from the very start, that changes a lot about how I see their early interactions. But that theory is based off of one panel so far, so....

And poor Madame! She was by all accounts a nice, generous woman, and quite kind to Charlotte herself, but inevitably when Charlotte is bored somewhere she starts blaming whoever her mistress is for her loneliness & boredom.

It makes sooo much sense that Charlotte never made an effort to be liked in Brussels because Villette could only have been written by someone utterly delusional about how other people see them (she was sure everyone hated her and that they were leaving her alone but she made no effort to make friends—naturally this is alright, as she was grieving several losses at the time, but she didn’t acknowledge during that time that her disdain for every person in the city may have had something to do with her loneliness). I’ve been through something similar where I was SURE everyone hated me and consequently suppressed my personality as much as possible. Ofc Villette was written several years down the line & questions Lucy’s perspective on her own loneliness, so while I haven’t gotten to that part in the biography I feel like Charlotte had been able to reflect on her past conduct.

So many aspects of Charlotte’s work are a little ambiguous; the treatment of Madame Beck vacillates between admiration and criticism. These ambiguities are NOT negative and in fact lend a richness to the novel. they come from an ambivalence on the part of the perspective character which is more realistic than an emphatic view. I think it’s because so much is based off of Charlottes real life and real emotion, she is constantly moving between her treatment of the fictional character and her complicated feelings toward the real person—or that’s my suspicion since reading her biography (it’s NOT a fact I am only putting it forwards as an interpretation).