#pandasize

1. walls were built from these new geometries. i closed myself up in casks to age to perfect. i hoped that by growing up, i'd give him something to smile about.  

in the end, when I saw his teeth, they were crooked, and i was wrong. 

2. bones broken open, the marrow sucked away. the nourishment is long gone. why do i wait? the jaws have no throats or voices to mingle with mine ear. they hold their own counsel. 

3. love is not a house or a bed. it is a waiting room. 

4. "you're bitter," they say, and I wonder back at them, how do you know? i'm angry and left behind, but those have no taste. you didn't open me up to taste my secrets, he did, and whatever my fears tasted like, he's not telling. 

5. there are too many empty spaces on these walls. they need to be filled up, clotted, stained, because this blankness can't be forgotten. it's a growling stomach, it's the hours of wasted time in bus stations, it's unpaid rent. fill it up, feed it, cover it with leaves. just not any pictures. 

6. i saw the place where a house used to be, when the house was gone but the crooked bowl of a foundation remained. the men who had taken the house, they reminded me of dentists. they took the house away, it was rotted like a bad tooth, and the rest of the neighborhood was humming like a mouth full of numbness.  

i walk home a new way now. i don't have any more teeth to spare, and i don't want to be reminded. 

7. the same spot on my upper lip cracks and bleeds every day. it's not a wound, but it never heals. for some reasons, this upsets me more. 

8. you left. you're gone. this is the last time i write about you. i starved out my tenderness toward you. you are common. i am indifferent. there is more than distance between us. i am closing my mouth; i am staying my hand. 

you're not moving. i am. i will burn you off like calories and my form, my mind, are changing. 

Because I leave all the bacon for you? ;)

I am quasi-vegetarian (eat seafood but not birds or land animals) and have been for, um, about 22 years, but I have to admit (and this may drive away followers in droves) that (deep breath) even when I ate meat I didn't like bacon very much.

pandasize replied to your post “I was tagged by armalis for this Four Things meme. - Four names...”

you and gk should fanboy about agents of shield together. i gave up on it too early, and he's completely hooked!

Once I get caught up, I will definitely drop him a line!

kindervenom replied to your post “I was tagged by armalis for this Four Things meme. - Four names...”

I adore Golem and The Jinni and Bridge of Birds!!