#panda psa

I'll be tagging anything related to the show from here on out #TFATWS Spoilers. I also can't watch it until Friday evenings so I'll be staying of Tumblr to avoid my own spoilers.

Hey y’all! Let’s get comfy and have a chat.

I have decided to redo my tag lists. Partially, because I am now writing MCU as well as SPN and partially because the vast majority of those I currently tag do not in any way interact with stuff I’ve tagged them in. I’m not mad. I get it. I’ve been away for a while. People change. Some people aren’t even on Tumblr anymore. It’s all good. But in the spirit of trying to be less of a burden and/or being plain lazy, I am completely throwing out my tag list and starting over.

So what does this mean?

If you want to be on my list, please send an ASK with your request and choose the list you’d like to be on (see below). Replies/reblogs will not be counted, because asks are just easier to track. If I don’t hear from you, I will assume that you do not want to be tagged anymore at all. Again, totally fine. No hard feelings. We’re still friends. xoxo 

I will have 3 separate tag lists for you to choose from:

Weirdos

Tagged in everything. The whole enchilada. Forevers forever.

Hunters

Will only be tagged in my Supernatural fics.

Heroes 

Will only be tagged in MCU fics.

Everyone one these lists will be tagged in open requests, blog updates, challenges etc.

All of that being said: If you ask to be on my list, it would be greatly appreciated if you would please, please, please interact with what I write. Sometimes I feel super invisible on this site and I’m hella needy and in need of constant validation. I don’t expect a note count into the thousands, but just give some love if you can. It makes me want to continue to share stuff with you. 

I will put my most recent tag list below the cut. Again, if you want to remain, please send me an ask with the list of your choice. If you don’t want to be tagged, don’t do anything.

So...this happened a little bit ago.

Welcome, welcome all ye new friends and followers! Thanks for choosing to follow me! I honestly can't believe you've all chosen to follow me! I am but a weird, anxious, awkward little Panda in such a great big Tumblersphere and you picked me. Sincerely: thank you.

Since there's so many of you now, I thought I would introduce myself! So please put your seats in an upright position, keep those electronic devices handy and grab a cold drink as we prepare for takeoff.

Heeeeyyyyy. I'm Manda. I like Coke Zero, Sam Winchester, the beach and I have a new found love for a one James Buchanan Barnes. I am a hair stylist by trade and I also write a live staged version of Supernatural for a nearby theater. I am in my 30s or as my role model, Miranda would say:

I write stuff. So far it's all Supernatural but I have a couple Bucky Barnes fics planned soon. I'm currently working on my Merry Manda's Christmas Drabbles requests. (If you're interested, I can take 2 more requests just shoot me an ask) But in the meantime you can check out my masterlist here:

Manda's Masterlist

And finally, for 1500+ of you, I don't have very much follower interaction. I would love to change that, but I don't know the best way to go about it. If you have any ideas, is love to hear them. 😊

Anyway thanks again. Hope you enjoy your stay. Thanks for flying Panda Air.

Welp. Still not dead. And thus begins the life update that no one asked for...

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This summer, my family and I moved out of state. Not exactly on a whim, but without a good, tangible "why" either. Not because we're in the military or looking to move closer to family or for a job opportunity. In fact...we have no jobs. I thought it would have been easier to find something...but 3 dozen applications, 5 interviews and two flat out rejections later....still nothing. I'm getting a little stir crazy and as much as I want to "create" something...anything...my attempts have been so far mostly in vain. I try to write - nothing. I try to paint - I hate it. I have a script due in a couple weeks that I haven't started and zero motivation to work on it. I have no friends close by. My anxiety has been insanely high (no pun intended) and my depression has been flaring more than it has in a long, long time. My kids have had a hard time adjusting to the move and their behaviors have been out of hand and often out of control. I'm tired, lonely, sad and bored with no end in sight.

And why am I spreading all my bull-shittery into the Tumblrshpere? Because screaming into the void seems more therapeutic at the moment than complaining about the same shit over and over again to the few, sweet, wonderful, friends who have had the displeasure of hearing it already. Also because saying anything to my friends and family back home that is less than "sunshine and rainbows" about the move, would elicit a resounding "we told you so!" from the peanut gallery.

All of this to say...as though anyone might still be reading this...if you would be so kind, please send prayers, thoughts, good juju, smoke signals or whatever my way. It would be much appreciated. And to whoever has my damn voodoo doll - if you could just put me down and leave me alone for a bit, that would be great.

Ok. That's all. Thanks for letting me vent.

Welp. Looks like I'm not going to be able to finish my Christmas Drabbles this year. Sorry to those who sent requests in that I didn't get to. There's a few I might be able to do as wintery one shots...I might have another I can do before Christmas, but I can't promise anything. My bad y'all.

Thank you for the love on the ones I was able to get to. You guys are amazing. I'll queue up some of my faves from the last couple years for y'all to enjoy.

I love y'all. Merry Christmas, happy Hanukkah, happy Kwanzaa, blessed solstice, happy Festivus, and whatever else you may celebrate.

I'm finally caught up and ready for episode 300! 🙌 That means I don't have to avoid my lovely Tumblr like the plague!

So...heyyyyyy all you new followers!!! I've had like 20 in the last week or so. (Where did y'all come from?!) And a big heyyyyyy to my loyal loves and far off friends as well.

I've got some Cas fluff to post in the nearish future and maybe a new chapter of At The Crossroads or Bad Blood soon.

So for the few who noticed my absence, hi hello not dead. Happy Wednesday, bitches!

-Manda

Hey y'all, just in case anyone was wondering...