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hey. so i started on duromine. Actually 15mg of panbesy for the first three days to 'ease' beginners into duromine. 

My stats: 

Height: 157cm

Weight: 58kg.

D1

I ate my first panbesy immediately after the doctor prescribed it to me at 9.30am. The only side effect i had was dry mouth and that was it. It did curb my appetite but not my desire to eat!! But nonetheless it was still lesser then what i usually ate. 

breakfast : kfc a.m porridge

lunch : veg + sweet sour pork + 2 spoonful of rice

snack : kaya butter toast

dinner : 3 sausages

+++ more water then i usually consume

i felt tired the entire day, (slept like a baby in the bus) so i thought i could sleep in early so i wont be tempted to put food in my mouth BUT NO, 

i couldn't sleep and got tempted to eat macdonalds at 10pm )-: 

supper: macspicy + fries + ice lemon tea

yes i didn't feel hungry but i wanted to eat cause like it just feels weird eating so little. (Usually i eat 3 main meals + snacks in between)

I thought panbesy didn't work really well on me cause after eating sinful macdonalds, i managed to sleep at my usual timing. so no insomnia for me! However, after consuming the pill i realised i started to sweat more. It was a cold weather that day yet i'm still sweating a little. 

D2

woke up at 10++ and ate the pill. 

breakfast: a little bit of fried beehoon & fried fish cutlet 

lunch: 2 inari sushi + hot jap green tea

dinner: 3 sushi + chocolate bread

++ a whole lot of water 

day 2 was much better. I was sweating way more then i use to, and drinking a lot of water because my lips get dried up every half an hour. I was still able to sleep for like 10 hours.

D3

took the pill at 10 ++ am

breakfast: a little bit more of fried beehoon & fried fish cutlet (dad was sitting infront of me, so got to force myself to eat a little more)

lunch: 2 spoonful of brown rice + a little scrambled egg with baked beans, lotus root corn soup 

there was luncheon meat on the table and i could resist it!!! 

dinner: maki san sushi stuffed with brown rice, cheese sauce, shredded chicken and corn.  (ate over 2 hours period cause i was working)

++ ALOT OF WATER

I felt weird after dinner though. Don't really like the cheese sauce, though i really love cheese but i dont really like maki san's cheese sauce ): my throat was burning whenever i don't drink 'enough' water. i think i was drinking over 4litres a day.

D4 

woke up at 9ish ++ and took my first duromine pill.

breakfast: 1 piece of raisin bread because i was gymming with a friend afterwards.

after breakfast i went to gym, drank water before heading into it and my throat started burning though i only did the cycling machine for like 15mins. its the feeling when you run too much without consuming water. and it hurts for a while. but i managed to pull it off by swallowing alot of saliva haha. Afterwards I went to the thread mill and walked because i was afraid if i ran my throat would kill me. Did some light stretching afterwards. 

My stomach was growling after that but I didn't have an appetite.

lunch: salmon with sauce + lotus root corn soup

dinner: subway ham and cheese wheat bread, with pickles, lettuce and sweet onion sauce. 

had my dinner before 7pm and didn't eat afterwards. Duromine didn't really make me full, but just allows me to stop at a smaller portion of my meal and choosing healthier choices.

However, I didn't managed to sleep as early as i would. It kept me up till about 2.30am ++ but afterwards i slept through the night :-) However, that night i felt so moody and i got pissed at the stupidest things at 2am. I remember feeling so upset with myself at being upset at the smallest thing ever. 

weighed myself in the morning: 57kg    

total weight loss: 1kg

side effects i've experienced so far:

dry mouth 

constipation (a little)

moodiness at night

a little insomnia

So today 19 Dec 2011, I went to collect my medicial report from my BB doc. I had gone for a checkup last week to determine why my menses hasn't appeared in the last 5 months. And the results? I have hormonal imbalances, high cholesterol and possibly gout. And all these because I have gained 25kg or 55 pounds in 2 years!

What really worries me though, is when she told me if I can't regulate my period now, I may have fertility problems in future --- and I am only 28, married but yet to have kids!!!

But of me is struggling with fear, fear of my health --- it felt like she has just annouced that I am dying with only a month left to live. This part of me feels so devastated, and want to wallow down chucks of food, as though after today, thou will not be able to eat anymore. Yet the other part of me is feeling indifference, resigned to fate, and wanting to give up before even trying.

As I look at the list of various food to avoid- seafood, red meat, eggs, cheese, carbs, offal, all forms of sweets and fats, sausages, processed foods, pizzas, ice cream.... it really leaves nothing much left that is worth consuming...

So I was perscripted Progout for my gout, norethisterone and progyluton hormone therapy and last but not least, Panbesy. For each medicine type, I was given strict instructions to finish the whole course which will last at least 2 months. However, I am quite reluctant to try the Panbesy pills.

I do understand that it will help me lose weight much faster than dieting or exercise alone, but I am also concern about the side effects like depression, insomnia, thirst, and some even say, complicated child births... so should I take it or not?

It sure seems like this Christmas is going to be a very cold christmas for me... not only have I lost my job, it seems I may have very well lost my health too.... with bills piling up, a stressed-up husband, a ugly haircut and color, a fat obese body, a dried up bank account, a large fat face, a wardrobe with clothes that cant fit and a badly battered soul, what is there left for christmas?

From:

The Depressed Hopeless soul

19 Dec 2011 11:52pm

Weight: 84.6kg / 186.6lbs