#palm hyperhidrosis

Hyperhidrosis sucks and getting treatment is excruciatingly slow because no one thinks it's much of an issue. I already had hyperhidrosis when i was seven years old. Well over a decade. And it's only gotten worse and i still don't even have an official diagnosis in my medical file.

Having hyperhidrosis is hell. Sure, I'm lucky I don't have things that affect my life on a worse level like bpd or illnesses that cause excruciating pain or mobility issues, but living with hyperhidrosis keeps you from enjoying things like the average person without hyperhidrosis does.

In this exact moment my hands are sweating. Using my phone is difficult, typing becomes harder bc you'll press one letter and the humidity from your finger on the screen types two other different letters and it slows you down. Not to mention the general discomfort it brings.

The hobbies part is honestly the worst for me. I love drawing but I'm stuck wetting the pages of my sketch book. I love air dry clay but you can't wet it too much otherwise it becomes difficult to use. I love crocheting but the yarn gets stuck on my finger and it doesn't run smooth so the process is slower and the stitches become either too tight or too lose. I love doing tiny things with paper like a mini bday paper cake or paper stars but wet paper rips and wrinkles easily. I'm learning Japanese and like to write down the things I'm learning but again, it's hard when I can't grip the pen properly and when my hands wet the entire paper.

In addition to the eating issue, it's also hard to cook. Then there's general things. Your hands get sticky even when they're not sweating profusely. You need to hold things like device's that you should be holding with dry hands. Getting paper bags from the bakery that start to dissolve in your hand. Plastic bags/objects that start to slip off your hands because of how wet they are. You can't touch your hair to put I up in a bun or even just brush it because it gets glued to your hands.

And then there's also the embarrassment. I feel bad when my little sister wants to hold my hand because it's all sweaty and i know it's a weird and mostly disgusting feeling. Usually my classmates never liked me because i was kind of the weird kid. It only made it worse that we would have physical education and need to hold onto each other for whatever the fuck reason and my hands would be sweaty so they'd be disgusted to have to touch my hands and I get it, its not a good feeling but it made it even the more embarrassing to do that class.

Your hands may be dry one second, but let's say you want to tie your shoe laces. Trust that in less than a minute your hands will be dripping.

Hyperhidrosis makes you feel unworthy of touching people and also makes you uncomfortable when others come to touch you because what if you're sweaty when they do?

Use tissues or towels to dry your hands, the second you put them down you can FEEL the sweat coming through again. It's not that bad in the winter. It mostly only shows when I'm exerting myself or something like that. But on summer it's hell.

I hate hyper hidrosis so much