#palinode

Okay I don’t even read much fic but @elodieunderglass got me with the dungeon meshi/his dark materials crossover (His Delicious Materials) so here is my best girl Palinode with Kensuke.

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I don’t know how to tell you I am afraid of the light. it took me twenty-seven days to come up with the words to write this. this is not uncommon. I tend to dwell, to stew in low places, sit in puddles, cry to the same three songs. I told you I loved collarbones, so you cut the necks out of all your shirts. that’s not what I meant. you worry about your life plan, about donating enough money, about continuity. I don’t know how to tell you god has ruined every plan I have ever made. I don’t know how to tell you that loss is not the worst thing a person can experience. I don’t know how to tell you that I am the one who does the leaving.

(OC character drawing meme - mirror/mask, draw character with a mask or mirror used to represent an aspect of themselves. Palinode - Laios's livestock guardian dog daemon, from His Delicious Materials.)

hey - hey. hang on google, I just want the link to my own fic, you don't need to -

it's on hiatus? I thought it was . on pause. google don't tell me I'm on hiatus - oh no, I'm on hiatus.

but there was also this:

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Here is Palinode in a mask, which is to say, her wolf collar and wolf armour. Livestock guardian dogs in remote areas sometimes wear similar things in our universe; usually handmade from metal, leather and nails. It was too awkward for her to bring into the story, but it represents several things; a natural companion to a knight's plate armour; the push-pull of her brother, a fey wolf-daemon; the push-pull of her duties and difficulties; and the inherent bitter comedy of buckling spikes onto a marshmallow.

“we write past, present and futurefind possibilities in wordsbut we cannot swim like dolphinsor swoop and dive like birds”               from ‘Being Human’ by Kim M. Russell I couldn’t wait for the end of itafter so much worry and disenchantment,and longed to say goodbye to itall year long. Planets out of alignment,illness took the shine off it,and there was no chance of atonement.The past year…