I am at stage 4 of a chronic kidney disease, I don't know if I will have much longer to live due to it getting seemingly worse day by day, But I guess all i can do is hope that i can make it, i'm only 24 years old, I have no idea why this is even happening to me.

i miss u

I sleep more often because only in my dreams does my fp (my ex) ever interacts with me in the way that I wish was reality.

dreams really fucking suck when u dream about someone u miss but you're afraid of getting into contact with them because you know you'll just fall for them again and then mess everything up because you keep doing things they don't like!!

not me having an episode and thinking that im ugly and unlovable because my siblings have s/o's but i dont because I FUCKED UP MY OWN RELATIONSHIP BY BEING FUCKING DUMB.

This shit don't end, huh, first sickness and now I'm stuck in fucking bed and unable to sleep because THERE IS SHARP ASS PAIN IN MY FEET. How much longer do I have to take this shit on top of my mental health?? And my fucking diabetes???

god. how do i keep fucking up, why do i keep fucking up, HOW am i fucking up, what am i fucking up????

god dude. i wanna medically transition but i am STUPID scared, but I don't wanna stay the way i am, you know?