#oxychatters

My mfing ass found these sailor moon looking pens at Dollar Tree

And the immediate disappointment that they didn't have a nice vibrant green color.

If you're dealing with depression and hopelessness? Grow crops.

I cannot understate this; GROW, CROPS. Get a little Dollar Tree grow kit for herbs, or tomatoes, and grow, them, crops. Make a little ritual to check up on your plant, and just take a moment to admire how it's grown as you water it.

I'm depressed af but it makes me feel a little better to look at my tomato plant and realize how far it's grown. How far it's grown because I'm in it's life. I cannot be worthless, because I have helped this tomato grow from a seed into little sprouts. By just giving a little water when the soil is starting to feel a lil dry? I've made this little Tomato's life better.

And it excites me that some day, this tomato plant will be big enough to make tomatoes. And it makes me have the hope for the future that I will be there to see that happen.

So, I've basically 200% lost my car. I couldn't make money during my lack-of-having-a-car, and I knew there was no way I could possibly get the money to buy it outright. Furthermore, it went to a dealer auction, so I was unable to make any sort of bid to try and get it back.

I'm gonna miss my Corolla. I thought I'd have that car for years to come.

Fortunately, not all hope is lost. My bestie's mom got her a junker car to drive, and my bestie has given me permission to use it.

It's a bit scary, since there's tons of problems with it, and a part of me fears it's gonna light on fire like my first car did. But, I'm proactive, and I keep a fire extinguisher in whatever vehicle I use.

I can at least still make money using Instacart, and I can at least actually survive, since I'm out in the country and too far away from everything to walk to anything.

The funds that people have sent me, I'll use to ensure I can actually survive during these hard times.

I'm not going to give up. Things are hard, and extremely depressing. But I've got to hang in there, failure isn't an option. I can't give up, when my bestie is counting on me to be able to handle things at the house.

So, at the very least, I hope that my continued struggle through life is inspiring to some. Life has never really taken it easy on me, and I never really had a childhood due to the frequent abuse and neglect I endured.

But I can't give up. People like me deserve a chance to live too.

Swear I still exist! Sorry for the lack of interactions, moving and unpacking has been quite the endeavor. And we got 2 kitties and 2 puppies on top because of where we moved to. Suffice to say? I've been having my hands full with cleaning up after, and training puppies! Soon as I can, I'm gonna be back on the job market, to find me something that I can work without being stressed out of my gourd. That is to say, once things settle down a bit? Should be able to get back into making voice acting goodies!

I'm OFFICIALLY gonna be moving now! So bear with me for my period of silence from my usual shenanigans. I'm hype, and most my time is gonna be devoted to that.

One being an animalistic shadow demon, eternally damned to be adhered to a soul in order to take physical shape. Who's body is muscly as all get out because 'that's intimidating', and doesn't realize he's essentially a thirst trap. And he's ace af.

And the other one is a goddamn mouse robot entertainer, who has air chambers underneath silicon layers, that essentially mimic muscle groups. And this dipshit can inflate or deflate them at will to 'bulk himself up.'

Decided to stop by and support my local library! Got myself an interesting read as well, to help overcome some of my trauma of holding books (too many times having em snatched out of my hands)