pretty frustrating how i try to be nice and civil to people who treat me like shit and i get nothing in return. i made a few mistakes, and i apologized. theres literally nothing else i can do lol. and i tried to mend things but i was continuously pushed away so???? like can we please just move on lol.

i dont know what im doing with my life i feel useless and unimportant and i try to tell myself the opposite and that normally helps but right now it isnt. i feel disgusting and like i have no one to talk to about this because i feel like no one knows how i really feel. i dont even know how i feel, which is the most frustrating part. but i do know i feel sad and anxious and stressed. and i dont want to be a sad person but at the same time, do i want to be happy? what do i want???? school is frustrating me and i feel like im annoying everyone around me. im not spending enough time with people that love me. i just want to cry and sleep and be with people i love.