#outofscrap.

[IIt always brings me a smile to hear that, thank you kindly.Sometimes taking a break helps, sometimes it doesn’t. But space is a good thing. Sometimes trying to push through with no inspiration makes it worse, I think.]

[I also like your Aoba lots. But sometimes a small break does work. Take the time you need if so! ]

{ i say take it easy and do what you’ve got to do for /you/, and take it on when you can. <333 whatever the case, i wish you luck, bb!!! }

Honestly, if I take it easy, I'm afraid I'm going to lose him entirely. But at the same time, if I try to force him, it's only going to make matters worse. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place and I just want to toss my laptop. Half the problem for me is that there's not much on Aoba that I can't do over on my Fran blog. They're both smart mouthed little shitheads, I just feel so much more comfortable over in the KHR community. I love being able to scroll through my dashboard and not see a million duplicates of my muse, I don't feel so out of place or self conscious there and it's great. And that's why it makes me all the more anxious to hop on here, but at the same time, I don't want to give up Aoba either. I just ghjklkhgfghjk. My self confidence sucks so much.

{ lays on. ♡♡♡♡ if it’s any comfort, you’re still one of my favorite aobas ever. }

So, it's no secret that my activity on this blog has completely plummeted lately and I do apologize for that, but I suppose I should provide a bit of explanation for that. My muse confidence isn't at what it used to be at this point. It feels like every time I log into here, there's another new Aoba blog somewhere and I understand it's going to happen with a popular fandom and a small cast, particularly with the anime and all that jazz. And I know that everyone says 'Oh, but everyone plays them differently!' and yeah, that's fine and great and all, but it doesn't change the fact that it hits my muse. Hard. You start to feel lost in a crowd and I'm beginning to feel like I did when I deleted my old Aoba blog. 

I want this tbh