now that i left my past behind, it surely it’s a strange feeling when you finally leave that reason of suffering , and yet i feel better than ever before. i sincerely hope it will remain that way. whatsoever, things change, people change, everything changes doesn’t matter how much we want it or don’t. we all make mistakes, that’s natural for being human, the important part is not to hate each other for mistakes done but to forgive each other instead of holding onto old memories and grudges. only by doing that can we improve and better ourselves, no?

personally, i won’t judge anyone here for how they were. how you were has nothing to do with how you are now. unless you’re still as bad as back but i doubt it, because most people grow older and smarter and with that change to the better. furthermore, i’d never listen to some bullshit gossip and slander, i have my own brain and i’m smart enough to use it well and make my own opinions instead of believing what others tell me to believe. it'd be nice if others would do the same? That said , we all did wrongs here and there but i started to change my behavior  because of my precious friends. they taught me well how to stfu instead of hurting them verbally…those guys changed me, gave me a heart, and make me able to feel some emotions I never felt that way before. i might be still apathetic in general but not with those precious to me. i learned to better myself, since i found my friends , i’m really happy.  i surely hope whoever reads this can understand my thinking. please remember, i won’t judge you without knowing you well~

i mean think of it, my entire concept of thinking is pretty much exactly what higurashi and other 07thExpansion work shows us. keiichi is a very good example. think of how terrible he was in tokyo but as soon as he moved to hinamizawa things changed to the better. and even when everyone heard what terrible things he did, no one judged keiichi for it. shouldn’t that exactly be what humans should be like?  Well. this was a lot of my thoughts and feelings that  i wrote down and i doubt anyone even reads that but if you do, thank you very much. if you reading this, feel like talking about this, you’re more than welcome to send me a message, IM, or ask, I will definitely talk to you about it.