#ourescapepart2

I recently watched Eyes Wide Shut for the first time, and my absolute favorite part about it was Alice's (Nicole Kidman) monologue about how horny she got for that Naval officer on vacation. Not to mention I was stoned as hell when I watched it so that made it extra tantalizing. The feeling of wanting someone so badly, regardless of relationship status, that you don't care what you have to do, you just wanna feel that person on top of you. I'm not here to talk about the moral part of it because that's irrelevant. We're human.

Having said that, I have a story:

In my lesbian erotic story "Our Escape", I mentioned how the character was inspired by a girl I used to have a crush on. We were both in the military working the same job. I don't think I ever felt such a strong sense of lust for anyone before her. Especially not a man. I've never seen anyone that looked like her or had her vibe. The pure intensity that I felt when I was around her was very hard to hide sometimes because we were just friends and I didn't wanna drive her away. There was even a point where I thought that if I had to go back to bootcamp all over again so that she would be by girlfriend at the end of it, I would. Even though I fucking hated every second of it. I didn't care. I was willing to go through it just for one night of bliss with her.

But unfortunately, she didn't feel the same way about me because she doesn't like girls. Of course I was devastated because nobody likes being rejected by their crush. If that wasn't bad enough, when I found out that some dude asked her to be his gf and she accepted, I didn't know if I wanted to cry, scream, strangle him, or all three at once. I've never felt a cocktail of emotions so intense in my life. Must be the Scorpio in me. It wasn't even funny. I wanted to do some really bad things. It felt like I turned into a demon. Thank God for my patience and restraint. 😓

There's something so intoxicating and beautifully twisted about having those feelings for someone. It was so poetic.