You will hit an age where, no matter now well-adjusted you grew up, you did not imagine being that age. Not necessarily in a way of thinking you'll be dead before then even, just that you'd never pictured yourself living the life of a person that age. Even if as gaps in your imagination. I've pictured being 30 in moments of fleeting fancy. I've pictured being 76, for some reason. I've never pictured myself 25. I have no idea how to be 25, except that it seems Big. I am a mess, I don't feel worthy of that number. It's not real to my life. I have never pictured being 25. Or 26. These are not numbers I have mental benchmarks for, what on earth are you supposed to do at 25? It sounds big, but I know in the grand scheme of things, it's not. In the sense that if someone died at 25, I'd say, 'what a tragedy, they're so young!' But put that in the context of living... and I don't know. How does one live as 25?
