#ouat readerfic

"Why do you keep me here? You hated me when I came into Neverland." You say with a harsh tone. "You want to know why I kept you here?" Pan says with utter amusement. "Let's think back to the night you got here huh?"

~* Flashback*~

You were happy, relieved and free in Neverland when you arrived but soon you found it to be quite opposite of what you expected. 'Peter Pan' was not all rainbows and butterflies, more so arrogant, childish and pride-driven. Everything was always his way and you would learn what happens when you cross Peter Pan.

"(Y/N) what are you sitting over here for?" Peter says as he sits down, "There's a celebration to be had. A lost girl on the shores of Neverland." "What's to celebrate about that?" You mutter. "Come on, don't be a party crasher. Maybe a song will get you on your feet." He smirks while pressing his lips together and a fluid sound leaves the pipe.

You get on your feet alright and leave the camp, heading into the depths of Neverland Forest. Peter looks aghast before getting up, leaving his second in command in charge before heading down the path after you.

"(Y/N) where do you think you are going?" He says while appearing in front of you and stopping you. "I don't belong here, not with you boys. I belong on my own. It's just how it's always been for me." You say, "Now let me go." "Hmm no. You're not leaving. And you- "Yeah I know. No one can leave without your permission Pan." You say in a snappy voice, "I don't mean to leave the island, just to go somewhere else on my own. Now step aside, boy." "Boy?" His expression turns dark, "You think you can just talk to me like this and I'll let you go? You're brave but what will happen when you have nothing else, it'll all dry up. Just like you and be worthless."

You shove him back against a tree and hold a blade to his neck to which he smirks as you press it further against his neck. He chuckles darkly as you stare at him with fire-ridden blue eyes.

"Look at you, thinking you can take on the leader of Neverland." He lifts a hand up and slowly brushes it across your cheek, "You've got fire. Every fire has a weakness though." "Not this one." "Oh you do, I can see through this tough facade." He grabs your wrist, hitting the pressure points, making you practically buckle to your knees, dropping the knife. "If you want to be tough, you have to believe it. I'm going to break you of this weakness and then, you'll see." "W-What are you going to do?" Never had you really feared Pan until this moment. "I'm going..." His voice lowers and slows, dragging his syllables out, "break you as much as possible. When you finally want to play, to do things my way, to not lie to yourself about what you feel, then we'll build you back up." He pulls you back up by the arm and tosses you into the arms of a couple sentries. "Put her in the cage."

Despite your protests, the boys drag you away and for a flicker of a second you see the pain in Pan's face before he replaces it with a smug smile. You fight the entire way until you are shoved into the cage and lifted into the air. A sigh of defeat comes from you as you lay in the cage for what feels like days. Slowly sinking away, you started to understand Pan's words. Not one tear was shed from you until you finally broke and it all poured out. From your cried out slumbers, you hear a soft voice at the end of the cage. You sit up, thinking you are dreaming until you see the smirking face of Pan between the bars.

"Am I dreaming?" You mutter. "Nope, my face is really this good looking." Peter says, his smirk spreading to a grin. "Ugh. What do you want?" "Are you ready to believe now?" "Fine. Just get me out of here please." You say to which he doesn't budge. "A little nicer." He tilts his head over. You let out a sigh. "Please, let me out of here Pan." You lean against the bars and look at him. "Better."

He opens up the gate and helps you out to which you stagger and fall into his arms. He holds you up and frowns at the sentries for not giving you water and food. With a shake of his head, he pulls you close and with a snap, you are both back into the camp to get you some food and water to build your strength.

"Next time, I won't disobey I promise." You mutter.

~*~

You stood there with your back still to Pan as he recalled the day before you finally turn around.

"So that tells me nothing." You say with a smirk. "I keep you around because you enjoy the game. You went with it and I broke you." He picks up an apple from the basket at his feet, "You understood what I meant. now look at you, the most lethal lost girl." "Because of your training. You are the hardest on me and I feel like I have a lot to live up to." "I just don't want anything to happen to you." Pan slowly places a hand under your chin, "Neverland needs you." "Don't go soft on me, Pan." You push his hand away with a smile. "Your loyalty rivals Felix." Pan grins, "And you like when I show my soft side, so you say in your dreams." "Shhh!" You cover his mouth while looking around, "Our Secret." "Mmffmfmgh." He pulls your hands away, "There are no secrets on Neverland, even the lost boys know."

After changing, you make your way back over to the camp and try your best to brush through your tattered wet hair with your fingers. You sit down on the log and stare up into the night sky above the clearing of trees with admiration until your thoughts are shortly interrupted by thudding boots. You look over to see the boy who was just here returning to his seat on the log, followed by the rest as they start to dance around the fire. You back away from the group and watch in wonder.

"Why are they dancing with no music?" You look over to the other curiously. "Is this like some kind of ritual or something?" "No, there is music, for those special children to hear it." He utters with a solemn face watching the fire. "You just got to believe in Neverland." "Neverwhat? That's a children's story though. I can't....really..." Your voice drops to silence as you vaguely start to remember what happened before you were washed up on the shore. "It was real. It wasn't a dream."

Feeling overwhelmed, you get up and walk away from the fire and activities of the boys before you turn back and put it together. 'The Lost Boys' you thought before turning and running into the jungle. What seems like forever of running, you come to another empty clearing and drop to your knees. Everything starts coming back to you as you're mind is overtaken with the agony of memories.

~Flashback~

You were working in a produce shop in a small port city that had its share of pirates and scallywags. There was none so fierce-some as the infamous Captain Killian Jones. You were closing up when the pirates came waltzing through and plundering around you. Fearful, you ran back into your shop and kept the door to it shut good until they broke it down and started going through your things. You stood calmly behind a door and waited for them to find what they wanted until you heard a thud against the door that made you jump. The door moved from blocking you and there stood Killian Jones.

"Well well look what we have here. A lonely little rosebud hiding in the shadows." He reaches out his hand and brushes it along your face which causes you to flinch away. "What have you to fear of me?" "You...you're...Captain Killian Jones. I have everything to f-f-fear." "Good point. Bind her and take her to the ship." He says with a dark laugh while moving out of the way for his crewmates to bind, gag and blindfold you.

Several hours later, you were stuck on this ship in the Captains Quarters curled in the corner in a heap. You felt yourself stirring from a little slumber you had and you couldn't see a thing yet from the blindfold. You heard some voices talking and soon you were being lifted from the floor and dragged out to the deck above.

"Well my dear, I hope you enjoy your adventure." He says with a hearty laugh. "The shadow is lucky to miss out taking you to the shore." You feel him cutting the binds and your hand flies up to the blindfold before you slap him across the face. Killian looks more than angered as he grabs your arm and leads you to the plank.

"Well I was almost going to change my mind about not throwing you out here but....I don't have time for your attitude. Enjoy your time in Neverland. You're gonna be here a while." And with that he tosses you over the side without a second thought.

~*~

You gasp softly at the air when sitting up from the ground and wondering how you got there. With blurry vision you see a figure sitting across from another going fire.

"Is it a mermaid?" says one of the voices looking down at you. "IF she was a mermaid she would have a fin instead of legs." a rougher deep voice said just ahead of you. "Hmmm she's been abandoned through and through. More than once." says a third voice as you raise up slowly, finally catching the chill of the night air.

Softly you gasp and wrap your arms around your soaked self when you realize the group staring at you are boys. They chuckle a bit at your actions except for one. He's showing little expression apart from a small smirk as he leans down to help you from the ground.

"Don't worry we won't hurt you....too much." he says as he is ordered to take you to the camp as the other one calls it.

You hit the ground with a grunt as he drops you once you got to the camp and you frown slightly as you rub your elbow. He snorts at you softly while throwing some more wood onto the fire before taking a seat on a log. You sit up and scoot closer to the fire for the warmth. His eyes are studying you until you look over which causes him to look away to the flames quickly.

"You act like you've never seen a girl before in your life, boy." You softly mutter as you turn to look at the fire. "Well as long as I've been here, I've only seen one. Girls are far too clever and too happy to ever be brought into this place." He smirks a bit beneath his hood. "You have that wrong. Sometimes we can be lost and alone." You turn your head away. "IS there a possibility for some dry clothes to change into?" "Just believe it and it'll happen." he mutters. "Close your eyes and think it, foolish girl."

You turn around and go to where the bush grows that blocks a walk way to a stream of water. You look around for any other possible way around this and to no luck, you frown at the vines until they slowly pull away. You turn around to see no one at all around. Curiosity gets the better of you and you walk forward into the little cavern-like space.

You get to the water and about to reach your hand out to touch it when a voice calls from behind.

"I wouldn't do that." said the voice causing you to turn around in alarm. "Who's there?" you call back. Getting no response, you really think you are hallucinating and sit down against the rock wall for a moment, holding your head in your hands to gather your sanity. "The water is special and can only be drank by those willing to believe." the voice says in a dark tone. "Are you willing to believe?" "I wouldn't be here if I didn't believe." you reply in a soft mutter before standing up and going to the water again. "All magic comes with a price." The voice said in a sing song mockery. "It's just water." you mock back before taking the water in your hands and scooping it into your mouth.

Thinking nothing of it, you stand there and wait for something to happen. You look down at your arms to see that the scrapes and bruises you have received over the time being there cease to linger on your skin. Your eyes widen with amazement and smile excitedly.

"You speak the truth. Who are you?"

Alas no voice spoke again and you look around for possibly someone and sigh to the empty air before returning outside. You walk over to the edge of the cliff and sit down on it, watching the glow of the sky turning from burnt orange to midnight blue. The stars come out and form into constellations you haven't seen before. You lay back and watch them in astonishment.

A few moments pass and you find yourself dosing into a slumber.

In your dream state:

You are lost in the Neverland Forrest trying to find your way back to the base camps when suddenly you come to the edge of a cliff that overlooks the river. You try to stop yourself from running but end up falling until a hand catches you. You look up to only see the dark silhouette but even there, you are close enough to catch a glimpse of his smile.

you try to speak to him but nothing comes out. He understands though as he pulls you up from the fall and sets you back on the land before he disappears without a word.

You awake with a start as the fall finally woke you from the small nap you had on the cliff. You almost forgot where you were and panicked before you had fully awoken. You think back to that smile on his face and it causes you to smile to yourself. You realize how dark it is and go over to the edge of the cliff before looking down and gulping. You get yourself ready for the climb back down and descend down the rocks. One of the rocks gives way and so does your footing. You grab hold to  the closest handling and try your hardest not to scream but soon the other rock gives away under your foot and you have no choice.

Panic in your eyes as you look around, feeling your hands start to turn cold and clammy. You take a big deep breath and mutter to yourself. 'I have to believe.' You pull yourself back up and grab hold of the rocks until you get back to the top and takes a deep breath when you fall into the land again. You let yourself calm down before you look for another way down. Once you find a way, you descend down again until you're halfway down and the rocks give way again. 'Great now I know what the price for drinking the water is.' You thought to yourself before you saw there was no way back up. 'It's either dangle here or let go.'