#oshhawott

I've been meaning to write something like this about you for a long, long, long time. I never got to it because I kept putting it off and kept saving this for a time where it would really matter, and I suppose you can say that it matters a lot right now. 

There're many things I can say, and I'll try to say them all to the best of my literate ability, but you know, there are some things that make me absolutely speechless. Firstly, you're such a sweet and caring person, it's pretty self-explanatory, but you're very open and you're a very kind soul. Second, you manage to make me smile all the time, there's something about you which makes me smile no matter what, this is probably the main reason why, when I come home and know you'll be here, I will always be happy on tumblr and just anywhere, because I know there's an existence called Elisabeth who lives somewhere in America who is total sweetheart.

But you see, I've been calling you a close friend without you even knowing, and that's stupid because I never thought anyone online could be a close friend. But talking to you and messing around with you makes me feel at home and I really appreciate it! Sometimes I wonder how we got to know each other, GLM would be an obvious start, and you've shown me so many cool, new things, it's really quite overwhelming. But some days I go through your tag and I wonder where the feelings started, because I really do cherish you as a friend. I sometimes think on my way to school, that no one can make me smile like Lis can, because it's true! The jokes you make, your reactions, what you post and say and do just brings a super big smile to my face and so far, I don't think many people have been able to do that, so please feel somewhat special and remember that whenever you're feeling sad (though it isn't really worth much, it's still a nice sentiment I guess). 

We live a long way from each other, I'm sure you're aware, and I've never seen you in person, nor have I been able to get very close to you in that respect, but it feels as if you're a friend I've known for a long time. Like, more than some of my school friends, and I just never thought that I could get so attached to you in the first place. So you've really proven me wrong. 

But, yanno, you're leaving and all, not totally, but you and your tumblr have become such a big part of my life, I don't even know how to feel yanno. Obviously, I'm super sad, truth be told, I cried when I read your post. I cried at breakfast, I cried at school and I'm crying now, but I understand and I don't want to make you sad so please ignore my crying. It's great to hear that you're going to focus more on the real world, and that's great because I know you have a great future ahead of you and I'm glad you're not letting something like tumblr hold you back! I'm really bummed to know you're upset over people on tumblr, but I totally understand, there've been times where people online have made me upset too so, I can sympathise.

I'm just, I don't know, I guess I had been thinking that you would be here for a while longer, but it's not really a perfect world and yes, there're things outside of this godforsaken website. I just wished that I could help you more, and be a better friend(?). I know you said that there was no single person's doing, but I feel really bad, and I want you to tell me what I've done wrong because I can't just go on and think I'm not a culprit when I know fully-well that I am, and I'm super sorry for it. I can't just let you go and I'm really sorry for that too, but I can't bring myself to say goodbye even if I know I'll still be able to pheed and TC you. Knowing that I won't be able to go onto your blog and just sit there is a little sad, and knowing that this could be the last time I talk to you for a long while makes me super sad. Tumblr was where we met and I don't think I can ever come to terms with the fact that tumblr user janearjafar is not going to be here because it just doesn't sound right to me; but I guess I'm going to have to get used to it. 

I wish you luck in the future, and I hope everything works out for you! I hope we can still be friends, and I hope that, amidst all your school work and life, you won't forget me! I don't blame you if you do, though. There's so much more I can say but right now I can't say it all. 

I, made a really long post and it's a little long winded I know, but I just wanted to tell you I'm really sorry, I really am. 

have fun in Iceland!!! :D

OH MAN LIS COME TO ENGLAND BE MY BOYFRIEND(??????????)