OH MY GOD, I’M GOING THROUGH MY OLD BLOGS, AND I FOUND THE VOICEMAILS THAT HENRY LEFT WINNY AND I’M IN TEARS @merlynwrites
One: I'm sitting here, with no coke and no alcohol and all I can think about is you. No one else. Not even Tanzie. I have nothing. I'm shaking and sweating and the only person who can make it all better is you. Fuck Win...I need you. No--I need coke. Always reliable. Never gonna leave me cocaine.
Two: Hey...it's me. They don't let you call many people. I figured I'd take my chances and let you know that I'm okay. That's a lie. I'm not okay. I will be okay...but now...I'm not. I just...I needed to hear your voice. Even if it is the obnoxious answering machine message you made. I know you probably hate me, but I just need to say how sorry I am. I--uh--I guess I'll see you when I get out? Maybe? Just...take care of yourself.
Three: It's Henry. I'm officially drug free. My therapist and sponsor both say I need to make amends with both myself and everyone I may have hurt. So...wanna grab lunch? Not like a date or anything...just to talk. So I can make a real apology, okay? Call me back.
Four: It's Henry...again. Call me back?
Five: Okay. I can take a hint. You don't want to talk to me. I get that. I guess I'll do this over the phone, then. I'm...I'm sorry for everything, Win. For making you feel like you weren't enough...I took everything out on you and I shouldn't have. There's no excuse. I can't do this. Not over voicemail. At least pick up the phone? I know you're screening my calls, Win. Just talk to me.
Six: I'm not going to call anymore. It's not fair to you. I guess this is it.
