#orwasit?

Subject: Unstable   MARCH

I'm not stable. I'm broken, torn, and scarred. I feel like shit. I want to die. And I feel like if I'm around you right now, I will breakdown and cry at this point. Crying is not my thing. So to end up feeling like this does not sit with me very well.

I did not mean to upset you, I just felt like the biggest failure ever. I still do. And I'm not sure if I can change that.

Something that is bothering me is my feelings. I'm not sure if you could even fathom the extent of what I feel. I am not sure what I am even doing anymore.

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I'm really curious when I wrote this, and why I wrote this. All it says is March in all caps. (for any of my friends reading this, it isn't recent. I know that for sure.) Like wow. I was fucked up. Anyways sorry for being a downer, 

You beautiful people have a lovely day

Looking at the recent photos of me on Facebook, I've realised I should wear suits more often....

It's good to see me in something a tad more formal than the usual drunken mess I am strolling around in more 'comfortable' clothing....

It's not that I don't find suits uncomfortable physically, but more mentally, when I go out on a night out I would be more comfortable blending in than standing out, (I suppose that's why I avoid too outlandish costumes).