ORIGIN RECORD — AUTHOR NOTE Status: Unindexed / inspiration material Source: personal notes Related Entity: Themis/Eloy _____________________________________________________ AUTHOR COMMENT: (Draft from March) The following fragments are based on personal notes written several years ago. They are not meant as a direct one-to-one mapping to any character. But they reflect a tension that later became central: logic vs feeling strategy vs truth …and the space between them. _____________________________________________________ FRAGMENT I I didn’t steal the test. Like… I mean, technically I did. But it wasn’t hidden. It was just… there. Open. On his desk. No effort. And that’s what keeps looping in my head: If something is that easy to take, is it even stealing? I didn’t say anything at first. Not because I felt guilty. Just… because I wanted to see what it feels like to know something no one else knows yet… Then I told her. And suddenly it was wrong. Not because of what I did… but because I wanted to share it. “Don’t send it,” she said. “They’ll report you.” But that doesn’t make sense. Why would you betray the person who gave you the answer? She says it’s different with us. Because we’re twins. I think that’s worse. Doesnt that just means we decide who deserves to know? So I might still send it. _____________________________________________________ FRAGMENT II Everyone had a plan. Which line to choose. Which verse fits. How to get the most points. I didn’t even read the question. Someone asked if I was stupid. I said yes. Which… honestly… might be true. But it wasn’t that. ████████████████ ████████████████ “Our gods are friends, why don’t they tell us?” I don’t know why. It just… stayed. Others chose something different. Something with more connections. More structure. It made sense. But it didn’t feel like mine. And that’s the strange part: I knew it wasn’t the best choice. I just… didn’t want the best one? I wanted the one that felt true. And yeah. Learned that usually costs you something. I didn’t even finish the test. Still… I think I’d choose it again. _____________________________________________________ FRAGMENT III He said my choice was interesting. I still don’t understand why. Everything is interesting if you actually look at it. So I asked what his favorite line was. He laughed. Than said: “ I want to be good, even if I don’t always succeed.” Said I should’ve chosen differently. Later in the text. More development. More to analyze. I understand that. I just don’t like it. Because what he really meant was: Don’t choose what hits you first. Choose what gives you more to work with. I told him I thought about choosing the safer option. Because logically… it makes more sense. But it wasn’t the line that stayed. And then he just looked at me. For too long. Like he was trying to decide if that makes me stupid or something else. He asked: “Do you think our gods are really our friends? Do we just not listen?” I wanted to answer. But Again I already felt it before I said it. “…not listen.” I hate when that happens. When something comes out before I can stop it. I didn’t say anything after that. He changed my grade later. From C To B Which is kind of funny… …Because I didn’t really say anything at all. _____________________________________________________ Conclusion: Selection is never neutral. What we choose and WHY we choose it reveals more than the answer itself. Status: unprocessed.
