#openstarter||meltingtheice

Gar's embarrassed gaze went to the ground, rubbing the back of his neck. "I'm trying to say is..." His words could've come off as confusing to the other, so he felt he needed to clarify. "If you need a place to fall when it all comes crashing down, and you need it right now," he then looked up and smiled confidently. "I'm...I'm right here. It's okay to breathe."

Gar held his mother's pendant to his heart, hugging himself in hopes of keeping himself together. "I can't change the past, and I need to let go, learning to live with this hole in my soul," he confessed, "I'm losing grip, and I'm just trying to cope." He lifted his head to look at his companion. "I'm doing the best that I can to live with the broken pieces of me."

With deep eye contact, he finally said something he thought he would never say. "I don't know if I'll be alright because if I didn't have you, I'd be better off dead." He caressed the face he had fallen hard for, afraid this was all just a dream. "You're the reason I'm still alive."

He wanted others to understand. He really did. But he was just so scared about hurting them. He had lost people he cared about after telling them like even saying the confession was a curse. "If you could see under my skin, you'd realize why I hold it in." Gar looked away, his hardened gaze hitting the ground like a dagger. "Why it's a fight I don't wanna win..."