#opaopa13

So my experience with floraverse was thus:

Around... 2019, I had gotten in a really bad situation relationship wise with my ex, who was running their polycule at the time like a cult, used me to cheat on another partner [I'd learn that later] and in general was keeping me away from people for themselves, and took me in when I was deathly afraid of my parents and moved me to New York to live with them.

I fucked up a lot there and went back home, and 2020 was hellish for that year.

It was around that time I met a certain someone who now became a floraverse admin, and WE basically formed a group with someone else, because they seemed interested in it and wanted to do a group read.

As all that happened, we'd all join up in the Floraverse server, go along the process, and so on and so forth, just talking and doing well in eastar, doing private readings which turned into a group read/voice acting thing,

A lot of the time there was spent doing events, sometimes I would flub things or ruin things a little, got a light talking to, but there were plenty of times where I was ganged up on for no actual reason, and it always made me feel scared and confused every single time.

I remember how a scene was happening in Talsam, and while there was discussion, I was talking to another member at the time [someone who's doing a lot better now] and the discussion got a bit confusing and I was starting to feel cornered, and glip jumped on to basically tell me off, and it got so bad my alter had to step in and basically keep us functioning while I curled up in a corner mentally A lot of things after that was various community events, and then there was bashball, which was, as a certain someone pointed out, a way to purposefully call out Iz and Crona for their actions at the time against rina [and we all know how that went]

Of course, there was everything that happened with jolly. For the most part, I have forgiven them, as you've seen, but the whole situation was really nasty while it was happening. Glip yelled at me a lot that I needed to break them off, and I did for the most part, but as well, I would try to show care to Tem/Opa, and apparently that wasn't the right thing to do. I wound up being put in the "conflict resolution channel", and basically got berated for, again, not focusing on myself, not seeming to care about how others felt.

And in the end, I was removed because apparently I still was "supporting jolly", cause I "apparently" knew when they had snuck back in and didn't say anything [I didn't, and apparently my inaction was criminal even though i was trying to focus on myself at the time.]

Besides that, I can't really remember much else. A lot of Wishbone stuff happened, I got chewed out there for seemingly being unable to properly express "intent" of some sort, it was BS I didn't care much about

A lot of the latter parts of my story happened around... early 2021/22? I can't remember, it was miserable, I was in Oregon trying to save a failing relationship and move, and so it just all collapsed into a long time of being alone and by myself with only two partners there for me.

I'm certainly much better now, but I think I should share my story even if it's a dense recollection of what happened, cause I genuinely don't think anyone else should suffer like I have.