dreamed about two guys who were very doomed. possibly the most doomed anyone has ever been

I’ve been dreaming about libraries. sometimes they’re real places, places I’ve lived before. sometimes they’re made up or frankensteined together from college buildings and half-remembered elementary schools. they’re always familiar. I think I keep coming back to the same ones. last night I pulled a big green hardcover off the shelf. fairytales. I opened it and fell in and then I dreamed about snow and woods and wolves. sometimes the dreams feel more real than being awake. they say that happens with these meds. at least they’re comforting. safe, in the smell of wood varnish and old paper.

dreamed I was getting married in a place where getting married involved grinning moon masks and starry capes which was weird but significantly more interesting than the tux and white dress thing

dreamed I was a weatherman driving in a weathervan trying to find a good vantage point to get better readings on a supercell rolling in from the northwest

dreamed there was a baby crying in my grandmother’s lap and I wanted to hold it and sing to it and my ma screwed up her appointments again which led to me and my sister going to look for her old doctor only to find the house abandoned and two neighbor boys told us she hadn’t been round in two months and “she was 78, yanno…”

damn I know it’s a common side effect of the meds but these dreams feel more like memories… and I always had vivid dreams but now it’s all night every night

ok time to get up I just dreamed a very garbled version of aladdin in which jasmine stabs herself through the hand to get away from the evil guy and then for some reason ed sheeran’s sapphire was playing and that was just too much so I woke up

apparently really vivid dreams are a side effect of the new meds I’m on… I woke up at 3 AM confused bc my ma and dad weren’t in the room and it took me way longer than it should have to remember I’m not doing a clinical internship this summer and it does NOT start on Monday. but it all feels so continuous like yes I’ve dreamed this place before it’s real as life or realer