"She made broken look beautiful and strong look invincible. She walked with the Universe on her shoulders and made it look like a pair of wings." ~ Ariana Dancu . . I know a lot of people on here know me as Sarah and some just know me as Kaluohs. That's weird to me... To have some people only know me by my alter ego I portray online, streaming, painting, cosplay... The strangest part about it is that Kaluohs is "the real me." . . Posts like these. Posts I stare at for 10 minutes before I hit share because I think over and over to myself, "what if my dad sees it? What if my mom sees it?" And the list goes on. . . Want to know why I took this pic? Because I felt beautiful. I had lost a bit of weight and felt like a model. I wanted to do a fun, sexy shoot in an amazing location (and old bank vault!) and the photos that @photosnxs took came out beyond my wildest dreams. . . When I see these pics, I see my confidence, I see my power, and the fire behind my eyes... But some will still just scoff and say, "what a slut." And THAT... That stupid little -thought in my mind of a THOUGHT someone else MIGHT have in their mind- was keeping me from posting it. . . I come from a conservative family. We're liberal in politics, but oh lordie if we didn't grow up by the book...the Good Book. Roman Catholic to be exact. I was taught to hide myself. Cover myself. Don't let anyone see myself. I should be ashamed of sexual thoughts and actions. . . I did all that. I did everything they said. I dressed conservatively, I was kind to strangers... And I still got sexually assaulted when I was younger (sorry to be a downer). . . The point is... I never needed to hide myself in the first place. If I want to love and express myself like this, I'm ALLOWED to and it doesn't mean I'm immune to harassment or any other craziness the internet has to offer (sad laugh) but it means I shouldnt censor myself for what if's. . . If you want to see this and think I don't respect myself, you're entitles to that opinion... But what I can tell you is that my action of posting this photo is actually the exact opposite. . . #burlesque #independentwoman #onlyicanjudgeme #bodypositivity #iloveme
