Please oh God take the pain away that consumes me. You see my hurt and pain, I need you to pick me up and carry my through this part of my life because I cannot bear it alone. I am feeling so low, so depressed, so deprived. I know you will restore me but right now it feels impossible to see the light at the long of my long depressing path. The pain feels never ending and it's killing my spirit slowly, unkindly. It's getting incredibly hard to find the strength within. Losing my grip with reality is a dangerous slope; my mind is a dangerous place of self hated and torture...reminding me multiple times a day about my misfortunes. Only you Lord can bring me out of this hell that consumes, that is slowly burning me alive. Please God, show me a way out and a way back into my children's lives, however it may come about...whatever I have to do. They are worth more than anything in this whole world, they are worth more than my own life. I WILL do ANYTHING for them. Please God, I beg of you. Help me. Show me. Guide me. Use me. Bring us together. Show me the joy that is my children. I

In your heavenly name I pray,

Amen