One Way...Up
Feeling battered
Like life doesn’t matter
Because the bags under my eyes
And weight of my silent cries are only getting fatter
Trying to shoot for the sky
But discouraged beyond reasons why
Then the anxiety kicks in
And I begin to cry and say “fuck it, why even try?”
The darkness closes in
And I’m losing wind in my lungs because now all the other issues begin to arise
But I have to push through and keep fighting with what energy I have left because I gotta make it
But some things don’t make sense
Like why do I have to be the one to face this shit
And why can’t someone save me and take these hits
Why am I always the conqueror while still feeling conquered
Because in the absence of peace of mind, only distaste and frustration grows fonder
Then I’m left alone with troubled thoughts and time just only makes them continue to wander
About the past and present and now the episode just drags on longer
I started out worried about one thing
Then everything blew in, in an instance, and made all the doubt stronger
But then I remember I’m a soldier and the trials only fuel my hunger
Then I remember I’m a beast and I fight back like I’m a Mongrel
Because I’ve come this far alone and I’ll still keep reaching
Because hope is my anchor and my reason for breathing
And faith holds me in its embrace and gives me something to believe in
Gotta tell myself to keep going
Because in the end I’ll remain tough
I’ll remember I’m good enough
And I’ll stop worrying about today
because the only way I can go from here is up
