The Walden Experience (Part 6 of 6)
About fifteen minutes later, my day's work was finally rewarded. Sitting before me was a plate of flaky salmon, grilled to perfection, topped with a savory and aromatic sauce and accompanied with garlic rice. I took in a deep breath to inhale the aroma...and whipped out my phone.
I know, I'm a horrible person. A real camper would have appreciated the dying rays of the sun on the picturesque landscape as they basked in the culinary experience that they worked so hard to accomplish. But I used my half hour of unrestricted access to the outside internet queuing up a random internet video, staying glued to my screen until the fish had disappeared. I honestly don't even remember what I watched, but it held my attention.
According to experts, that's not atypical. One of the main symptoms of many internet psycoses is eating all meals in front of a screen, and any food feeling unfulfilling if you're not watching something with it. They say it's some kind of Pavlovian ritual the mind goes through, and I believe it. I honestly tried to enjoy the scenery while I ate a few times during that summer, but it just never felt the same. But if I was going to give my brain over to the net for just a short time every day, then it was better than...that alternative.
However it happened, I cleaned my plate and filled my stomach. After it was done, I tried to contemplate. This was probably the freshest meal I'd ever eaten, the first animal I'd caught, killed, cooked and eaten myself. And depending on your opinion of cloned beef, it might be the first real animal I've ever eaten. This fish was a symbol of technology's synthesis with nature, of cooperation across time and space, and selfless distance thinking of those who came before me, hopefully carried on to future generations. I was participating in something that may bring America back to nature, back to an appreciation of the world beyond our cityscapes and prepackaged microwave meals. It was a return to primitive humankind, but also a step forward into the posthuman.
It was also pretty tasty, though the lemon and garlic flavors didn't seem to work well for me. Three and a half stars.
I suppose at the time I could also have ruminated over what that rating meant, who I was really giving it to, and if it was a judgment of myself, the technology, the fish, nature, or everyone else that put things in motion so I could experience it. But I was tired, and it was getting late.
I washed up and retreated to my black-walled bedroom/bathroom to brush my teeth and get ready for bed. However that night, a wild idea hit me. I pulled my little cot out of the black room and into the main cabin. I'd finally started living off the land, I thought, so why not start living in it?
I sat there for a good long while. Me, on my cot, in my bedclothes, protected from the wild, untamed expanse of nature by nothing but a transparent, dubiously unbreakable set of walls. That was all that ever separated us these past few nights, but it was different because I could see it all, and it all could, if it desired, see me.
Big Salmon Lake was reflecting the bright, pale moon, perched atop Charlotte Peak resting for the night among a dense forest of greenery. Among them was an old olive tree, a hidden patch of garlic and onions, and under the lake bed a teeming ecology of fish. It all lived there without me, and would keep on living after I left. At that moment, we were part of the same whole.
I reclined back on the cot. My view of the stars was mostly obscured by the solar panels, but I didn't mind. I reached for my phone one last time that night, dimmed the Orison battery to standby, and queued up a story. I had filled up my library with e-books in anticipation of being bored all summer, but so far I had yet to touch it. I chose one of Shakespeare's works that I had only gotten maybe halfway through back home, and set it to audio.
As I laid back down, I felt like I was going to fall right to sleep for the first time in my life. I think I woke up in the middle of the night a few hours later, but for the time being, these were the last words that lulled me to sleep.
Be not afeard; the isle is full of noises, Sounds and sweet airs, that give delight and hurt not. Sometimes a thousand twangling instruments Will hum about mine ears, and sometime voices That, if I then had waked after long sleep, Will make me sleep again: and then, in dreaming, The clouds methought would open and show riches Ready to drop upon me that, when I waked, I cried to dream again.
(This journal made public by the Walden Experience project, on behalf of the Department of the Interior and the Yellowstone to Yukon preservation initiative. To learn more about the program and this cabin's availability, follow the link to the Walden Experience website...)










