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Kelly Kelly got Candice Michelle's theme song?! Candice was actually sexy enough to make it happen! Kelly Kelly's character can't pull it off!

I have come to face the facts that I can no longer exist in the real society to be happy. I will always need to have some kind of alternate reality. I won't say that it keeps me sane though; I may be arguably classified as not totally sane for being dependent on such non-realities. But the life that I have been given is not one that I can accept with an air of finality. In my mind, there is always a could-have or would-have paralleling every one of my encounters. But they're also open-ended, so if I could or would do a certain thing, my life will eventually align with the life I lead in my mind. That is what keeps me sane, the belief that I just need to do certain things to achieve my ideals. I would say my ideals are pretty realistic--after all, they are based around what is actually around me and who is actually around me--but they are ideals nonetheless, and I do realize that there is a small chance of them actually happening. But that's actually not the point at all. I just need something to keep myself from stopping.