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ugh i just saw, tumblr hated it IMMEDIATELY but i’m appealing it now :’( thanks though!

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2: Talk about your first kiss. My first kiss… I can’t really remember… I know I had the little pecks throughout school, but I didn’t actually have my first REAL kiss until i was… 17-18? Yeah I think that’s about right. And as you can tell it wasn’t very remember-able. 4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far. The thing I regret most so far in life is not being more socially confident. In person I am a very shy person, I don’t talk to people unless they make the first move. Though I have grown more socially confident since graduating high school, but I just don’t think that it’s enough and I wish I had more. 6: Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had. The worst birthday I had I was either grade five or six. I had gone to A&W with my dad (because that’s what I wanted for my birthday), and had just sat down to eat my food. Then this homeless man, who stunk to high-heaven, came in a sat really close to where my dad and I were sitting. Now I’m not sure if this was the real cause, but I becase very very ill after leaving the resturant and I claimed it was because of the homeless mans smell. No matter what anyone told me I was 100% sure that was the reason I was sick. Now I was being a trooper and was determind to enjoy my birthday since we were going to local wave pool but the entire time I was just super sick, I think I sat in the shallow end and the kiddy hot tub for most of the night. Then we got back to my dad’s place and I got even more sick and began crying because I wasn’t enjoying my birthday party with my friends. My friends ended up leaving and I proceeded to be sick on my birthday. The end8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

The thing that I am most proud of is my proficiency in Japanese. Now I know I could be better, but for something that I idolized throughout middle and high school, I am very proud of it. I love speaking/reading/listening to Japanese and sometime I use it as a way to relax myself; I just start writing what ever I can think of in Japanese and for get about what is bothering me. 10: Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.

The biggest fight I ever had was probably with my dad. I can’t pin-point the exact one but my dad and I have had a few (even just in the last 4 years), some escalated to him threatening to kick me out. But yeah, my dad and I have had some bad yelling matches. 12: Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had. I have had TONS of bad dreams/nightmares. I remember one where my mom, my step-father, and I had just moved into this new place but shortly after my mom and step father left to join a “EXTREME WEIGHT LOSS WRESLING COMPETITION”, and it was one of those like don’t sue us for any of the outcomes. Well eventually I couldn’t get a hold of my parents and I went to find someone to talk to. I found my ESL teacher (I wasn’t actually in ESL I just helped in her class) and told her I couldn’t get a hold of my parents and that I though that they were dead because of this competition. Sure enough I watched the episode and there were my parents and they were deathly thin in this wrestling competition and it showed my parents dying (I can’t remember exactly how), and well after that I went into our back yard that had sand instead of grass and a pool. I hopped into the pool and just floated there and cried. I also remember letting look a hamster in the pool to see if it could get out. THE END. I then proceeded to wake up crying, my pillow stained with tears. It was the worst way to wake up.

14: Talk about a vacation. The best vacation I had, that wasn’t really a vacation, was my trip to Europe for my spring break in grade 12. I went with my favourite teachers to Munich, Venice, Florence, Rome, and a few places here-and-there throughout the trip. On the trip were some of my best friends and the others were people that I knew throughout the years in school and had to issues with (other then like the 6-8 people from the OTHER school that came) and we all just got along, had a great time and enjoyed our selves. I will never forget the feeling I got when I went into the concentration came Dachau.   16: Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to.

The best party? I can’t really remember the parties that I’ve been to, but I’d have to say one of my favourites was one halloween, I think it was 2009, and my friends came over and we just had a fun night of video games, drinking, and playing with glow sticks. Then another one is my graduation party, and there are some video’s floating around youtube about that night, but what I got out of that night was my bestie jenemen, I really miss her a lot right now. 18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

I was in grade 4 and I got these sports bra kinda under shirts, and I had seen older girls wearing them while doing sports. So my adolesent mind thought that it was okay to wear during gym class and so I went out to sit in the circle and wait for the teacher. I was teased by everyone and ran back into the change rooms and threw on my shirt and hoodie because I was horribly embarassed and I wanted to cry. Another story is that I was friend’s with this one girl, she pissed me off really badly (I was a really timid child and didn’t speak up when people angered or irritated me but she did) and so I ended up beating her up, like it was her on the ground, me on top of her, and I was punching her in like the shoulders and stomach, I think I even slapped her in the face at one point. I was a really tiny child so for me to be sitting on top of her and holding her down while doing it was a little impressive. Also keep in mind I was not an aggressive person so it was very usual for me to do something like this.   20: Talk about something that happened in high school.

Something that happened in high school… At one point I got really angry at my friend okaycontinue and refused to talk to him for about 2-3 months, but then the Europe trip happened and it made it all better again and it never happened again. 22: Talk about your worst fear.

My worst fear is not being able to defend myself if someone breaks into my house and/or attacks me. I am scared that I will be defenseless if that ever happened. I’ve had MULTIPLE dreams about my dad being very close yet not being able to help me while someone attacks me (hitting and violating). I don’t know why that is my worst fear, I’ve never been hit or violated, so I don’t know where it comes from. Then after that is fear of loosing a family member and not being there with them and saying goodbye or that I love them. 24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

I don’t think I have an answer to this.

26: Talk about things you do when you’re sick.

When I’m sick I am usually huddled in bed with used tissue beside me from sneezing and I usually watch like 5-6 movies throughout the day.28: Talk about your fetishes.

Fetishes, I don’t really have any weird ones, but I do really like my back being touched and my head during the intimate times. Other than that I don’t really have any fetishes that I can think of. 30: Talk about what turns you off.

I really hate it when anyone talks to me like I’m a child. It happens often because I don’t project this image of being super deep and philosophical. I am very smart, I just don’t make it super obvious and so people mistake that and usually talk down to me or talk to me like I’m a child. If someone does that then instantly I put my walls up and have issues.

And for turn off’s for like dating purposes I would have to say a disrespect of females/women or are misogynistic. And a lack of personal hygene (being smelly). 32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

a place that I remember from my child hood is… Cultas Lake, Chilliwack, BC. It’s a wonderful and clean(er) lake in BC and I’ve spent so many of my summers on those beaches.

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34: Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured.

The worst pain I’ve had to endure…. When I was in grade 2, I went to Vancouver Children’s hospital because my body was shutting down, a.k.a I was slowly dying. I had Acute Nephritis due to strep throat that had gone into my blood stream. I was young, didn’t realize I was sick so I didn’t say anything, the only way it was caught was because I had gone jaundice. Well since I wasn’t able to keep down any of the medication they wanted me to take, I had to ingest it a different way, a.k.a up the pooper. That was the worst, uncomfortable, awkward, and embarrassing experience to a 7 year old. 36: Talk about your guilty pleasures. My guilty pleasure is Jersey Shore. I am not embarassed to admit it. I’ve seen every season multiple times, I watch it as back ground noice. I also really love Nicole. I know she did some stupid shit on JS, and it’s the brightest baulb in the package but the way that she’s faced her past, deals with the haters, and has grown up for her sons just makes me love her all that more.Then another is stationary. I LOVE PENS, PENCILS, PAPER AND EVERYTHING ELSE. ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL.Also buying books. It’s a bad guilty pleasure. 38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people. One is Butterfly Kisses, it’s the song for my dad and me. I know it’s used a lot but I’ve heard this song since I was probably 3 or 4. My dad and I would go driving around while listening to it all the time when I was younger. Then actually Miley Cyrus’s Wrecking Ball makes me think of a certain person that still means a lot to me.  40: Talk about the end of something in your life.