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Jae-eun didn’t have the energy to be truly angry. Instead he just felt, defeated and tired more than anything. Keeping everyone away was draining, but it was the only way he knew to keep his heart safe. “What do you know about my past? When you have an infinite future the past doesn’t really matter does it?” Memories of what his life once was flashed across his mind dredging up all the feelings he tried so hard to bury, the alcohol slowing his resistance to them and breaking down his carefully constructed walls. “When you’re human, sometimes the past is all you have. My pain and memories, the bitterness and guilt from their death’s. It’s all that’s left of my family. So if it’s all the same to you I’m going to hold on to the past as tightly as I can. If it controls me or whatever then so be it.”
“I don’t know anything about your past — but I never said the past didn’t matter.It would be foolish of me to think that way.” his tone softens a little as he speaks; not wanting to seem intruding. But even if he did without intention, he hoped somewhere down the line that maybe something he said could be helpful. “History is indefinitely important, and so is yours. I’m not here to take that from you, or to tell you to forget about it. Don’t forget about it.” Suho dares to reach out a hand, slowly and carefully, his palm just barely resting over Jae-eun’s shoulder. “Your past is a part of you, but...it’s up to you on whether you let it help you, or destroy you. It’s unfair of me to sit here to compare; and perhaps I don’t understand humans as much as I’ve thought, or as much as I want to...but I understand pain, and bitterness, and guilt...and how the ache never seems to go away, no matter how much time has passed. I just — don’t want to see anything bad happen to you. ”
