#offtowonderlandd

you lost money on me LOL

also ash and i now have pink valentines day nails and ash has a new bf..

the nail guy.

The Snow Queen: Who is your best friend and what would you do for them?

dear best friend,

thank you for putting up with my bitching, my moods, my fears.

my refusal to leave the house for stretches of time.

thank you for holding my hands, for letting me cry, for accepting me as i am.

thank you for never judging me, for letting me bring weird food to your house, for endless CVS trips.

for hundreds of hair dying days with hundreds of ruined towels and grubby clothes.

i love you, i love you, i love you.

you are worth so much, you are my soul sistah, you are my friend soul mate, you are the love of my life

and i love you, okay?

thank you and remember that even on the worst of days, when you feel nothing, you love nothing, remember that i love you and  i'll be there to hand you things to throw LOL JK WE dont do that no mo'

i will be here through good times and bad times, it's been.... 4 years???

idk bitch has a versatile head

go help her

and she gets my jokes 95% of the time and that's all i ask for.

my comments don't make sense, i bitch all the damn time and i panic over protein bars and cvs while my face turns red as shit

and then i panic about which water to buy

but she don't judgeeeeeeee

and ily for dat babygirl i gonnna misss you and i see you in 7 days and we reunite and we shoulda hugged but then tears..

me and ash are reunited

and it's actually really nice to be around people you love and who love you.

things are going to be ok

maybe not tonight

maybe not tomorrow, not so soon

but things will be okay.

and i need to remember that friends, my best friend

can help me . and i can get through this.

being alone maybe isn't the best thing, and i've been isolating myself for weeks. maybe that's why i got worse.