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Here is Hakkai trying out an outfit Mitsuya made for him~! ✨

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Notes: Highschool au cuz it's the easiest (and most fun) to write, gn reader but a mention of wearing a skirt, for @virtue-and-beneviolence cuz she just reblogged a post that me an idea (hope you enjoy this), find more of my x reader content at @makinmefeelspecial

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"Can I have a hug please"

You sat in shock, questioning your hearing. Did he really just say that or did the cigarettes you were smoking finally start kicking in?

"What?"

4 hours prior

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Stop asking me questions, I'd hate to see you cry-

Mama- we're all gonna die!

summary: hs hanma and draken are a bit cheesy.

warnings: not very well beta read but half beta read ig! kinda sucks :P

notes: pretty much just me projecting things i can't talk about anymore @appreciatingtokrev (LATE BIRTHDAY GIFT BUT WHATEVER ILY HBD) ps i love awkward romantic teen hanma <3

First kisses are special things.

When you kiss someone for the first time, intentionally or not, it's something that ends up sticking with you for the rest of your life. Every time you kiss someone or every time you think of loving someone, automatically, your first kiss will be brought up in the situation. It can't be helped. So, it's preferred that your first kiss is with someone you love. Someone that you're willing to share that title to.

That is why first kisses are sacred.

And that is why Hanma gave Draken his first kiss.

It was planned out to be a simple afternoon. Hanma would hang out with Draken at his place straight after school as he did more and more recently. Sure it pissed off Kisaki when he had to cancel plans but that didn't really matter to Hanma, what did right now was the blonde boy who he could never get off his mind these days.

He really was the only thing on Hanma's mind nowadays. Just Draken Draken Draken non stop. So every opportunity he got, Hanma preferred to spend it with him. Even if he didn't like him back, his company was nice either way.

Though the only reason however he had not backed off yet was the fact that his crush seemed to have been showing an interest in him just as much, so with the possibility of Draken liking him back, Hanma was confident enough to gamble with the hopes of a relationship in this situationship.

"Cola as usual?" Draken called out from his mini fridge as Hanma walked into his room, "Uh yeah, cola's fine." As Hanma sat on Draken's bed, he was thrown a can of soft drink, Draken sitting beside him on the cushion. "So. Do you wanna watch another couple of movies again or do ya maybe just wanna talk?" Draken asked his company as Hanma flicked open his drink. Hanma took a chug of his beverage to stall, thinking of how he'd want to spend his exclusive alone time with Draken.

"Maybe we could talk a bit? Since we've been watching movies a lot recently." Hanma concluded. From then they merely just bantered back and forth, laughing over stories of their friends and discussing topics in relation to school.

"Okay okay but wait, there's something I literally must ask." Hanma's interest was suddenly peaked when Draken folded one of his legs up to face Hanma. "So- out of all the girls in our two grades who do you find the most attractive??" The question made Hanma nearly choke on his cola. It's not like he could blame Draken for asking, since its not like he knew that he was as straight as a circle, but still.

Hanma looked around in a sudden panic, "Uhhhh not sure- maybe like uhh- Ayari-chan? I don't really know since I don't actually think out it too much, hah…" Draken nodded back to Hanma's response. "Ohhhhh okay okay makes sense" Hanma sighed in relief as it seemed that Draken took his answer just fine.

The blonde sipped from his beverage before boring his eyes into the design of the can, "In all honesty, I think Sano Emma-chan's a real cutie. I'd totally go out with her too not gonna lie."

Wait.

What?

Hanma sat up suddenly, “O-oh! So you have a crush on Sano-san??” He forced a smile, it couldn’t be possible right? Surely Hanma’s fat enormous crush on Draken wouldn’t be crushed instantly by just one girl,,,right?

But Draken just about spat out his drink when Hanma asked that question. “What?! Of course I don’t! This was just hypothetical!” Draken rambled, attempting to defend himself, “Plus his brother is my best friend! He wouldn’t ever let me touch her!” The false grin that Hanma had been straining had slowly melted off his face as he continued listening to his friend, a genuine expression slowly blossoming, “Hmmm I don’t know man, that all just sounds like excuses…” “I’m not even gonna try arguing with you, Shuji.”

Yet the two retreated back to disputing again, in good fun and all. And Hanma definitely hadn’t just continued to aimlessly argue to get his mind off how Draken suddenly used his first name either. Because it was absolutely totally normal between two "bros", of course.

“Ugh fine okay so if I apparently have a crush on Emma-chan, who’s your crush then??” His question made Hanma freeze, was he really asking that? He wasn’t ready for this conversation, especially if it was with the guy he was crushing badly for.

“Oh haha very funny Ken, but there’s no one, seriously.”

“You’re really gonna pull that on me now? C’mon, I see the way you smile when you’re quiet with your ear plugs in, you’re obviously thinking about someone. Hanma- let it go~~” Draken pressed on with a cocky grin as Hanma’s cheeks slowly began to burn, he couldn't believe how oblivious he was.

“No way! If I tell you it could totally ruin a friendship, seriously!” He didn’t want to see any of Draken’s expressions anymore so instinctively, Hanma shoved his face into one of his pillows without a second thought, yet instantly regretted it when the intense smell of his crush hit him like a truck. “Okay okay fine look, I’ll cut you a deal” Hanma peeped an eye up at Draken to show him that he was listening. Draken sighed, “If you tell me your crush, then I’ll let you in on mine.”

Straight away, Hanma pulled his face back into the cushion, there was absolutely no way in hell he would ever let himself hear the one guy he was head over heels for admit to his face that he had a crush on someone else. He was 99.9 percent sure he was certain but he would never ever do that to himself, that would just be way too much. Draken continued insisting over and over as Hanma continued denying over and over, “Shujiiiiii!! C’mon man! I already said I wouldn’t judge you, why can’t you tell me?? What is it???”

“God fucking damnit- It’s because it’s you, you idiot!” Hanma jerked the bolster away from himself as he blurted it out to Draken’s face.

The silence that followed was deadly.

Awkward.

Excruciatingly uncomfortable.

The pair merely stayed frozen, eyes glued onto the other as their skins began glowing redder and brighter by the second.

Yet Draken was the first one to crack, smiling abruptly in a way that Hanma would mistake as unnatural, “That’s…great..?-“

“Nope. Fuck. I knew I shouldn’t have said it-“ Hanma immediately stood and paced for the door, eyes stuck to the floor. He couldn't believe how naive he was. "Of course Draken doesn't like me back." Hanma thought to himself, "Of course of course of cours-"

But he was stopped by a grip on his wrist pulling him back. He didn’t dare look back.

“Wait- Please don’t go” Were the words Hanma least expected in this situation. And yet here he was, looking back at the boy he was falling for, his cheeks a bright red with an expression that showed both longing and fear. "I didn't mean to say it like that. I-" Draken's eyes shot to the floor from either embarrassment or being in search of the right words.

His eyes locked with Hanma's once again, "I didn't mean to say it like that, I mean that I'm really, really happy that you actually feel the same."

Draken's smile was sweet and innocent, but on the contrary, Hanma couldn't believe his ears."

"I'm sorry, did you just say feel the same..?" The blonde nodded back passionately, "Huh.........that's crazy" With his hand still wrapped around his wrist, Hanma sat down on Draken's bed, attempting to contemplate what had just been confessed.

A few (a lot) more minutes passed as silence continued to grow. Hanma sat there practically going through the abyss of his mind pondering what was going on as Draken's eyes darted around the room rapidly in panic. He couldn't stand this silence, especially with the fact that it was never this dead whenever Hanma was around. So when he finally had enough, he stood up and moved to kneel in front of Hanma, grabbing both his hands and holding them in his. He took a deep breathe as Hanma fixated his vision on him, "Okay, look Shuji. Yes. You may find it unbelievable, but yes, I like you. I really really do like you. As crazy as it sounds it's very true and I need you to know that. Because this isn't a prank. And this isn't some set up." Draken gently squeezed his hands as he paused, "Because I actually very much am slowly falling in love with you." He admitted with a sincere grin.

He couldn't believe his ears for one second still. Hanma just continued sitting there, red and in complete shock. That was probably the worst part, when Draken admitted to falling in love with him, he went such a bright red it was laughable. But, if you ever asked him what was really the worst part, he'd say it was the moment that came after that he messed up the very best.

"Can you just kiss me"

Hanma requested bluntly, instantly getting Draken to look at him. "You..want me to kiss you? He blushed slightly, Hanma nodded, gently, he couldn't have been so sure of something in his entire life. So, as Hanma removed his hands from Draken's grasp and moved them along to his shoulders, Draken placed a steady hand on Hanma's waist and the other on the side of his face. They shuffled closer to one another, close enough to the point where they could feel each other's breathes on their skins, something neither of them ever would've dreamt of.

In a moment of stillness, Draken's eyes wandered across Hanma's face, now in much more detail. He noticed how bright purple his eyes really were and the fact his eyelashes were actually noticeably long, he noticed how he had more pimples of the left side of his face over the right side because of his bangs, he noticed how his lips were on the borderline of dry and hydrated, and how his lips were quivering too. Draken also noticed that he loved every single part of Hanma's face. "Can I kiss you?" Draken asked again, nothing more than a whisper, a second, then two passed before Hanma closed his eyes. "...Yes. Yes you can."

Call him desperate, call him too excited, but Draken immediately rushed forward to kiss him, the strong impact much to Hanma's surprise. The kiss wasn't like the movies of course but to both of them, it was just perfect. It didn't last too long or too short. Their lips met, they shifted, and they parted. When they looked at each other, both their cheeks were blushed red and they were both the slightest bit out of breathe. But they didn't care, they giggled and leant their foreheads against each other. Before whispering words they really, didn't dare to dream of before: I love you.

sanzu use to be mine.

we met when toman started. even though he’d been there longer than me, mikey still gave him to me, only to teach him how to play guitar properly. his technique was sloppy but he was an utter natural, so i took him in. 

through the next couple of months, i got to know him. he loved cheesecake and has always wanted to dye his hair pink. he doesn’t really like showing affection to anyone, but that’s only cuz he doesn’t like to, so i didn’t mind. he has a huge admiration for mikey and had a real punk style, which is something i admire of him. but another thing i admired abt him is how he’d stand up for the things he cherished, like how he threw hands with someone just cuz they said toman’s music sucks. 

after a few months of being by each other’s side, we soon ended up dating. it wasn’t anything big, we went out for cheesecake after rehearsal like any other day and i just went for it. i swear that day was the first time i’d seen haru smile that much. that day is still my favorite of my whole life. i still remember how he literally yelled when i first posed the question, and when he said yes, he physically jumped over our little table to give me a hug. god, i think i really loved him. 

about a year later tenjiku was formed. a guy that was the frontman of a band i use to be in began tenjiku and he wanted me to join him, i said yes without another thought. and surprisingly, haru followed me into tenjiku, though the band didn’t last long. we had this battle of the bands against toman and we ended up having to forfeit due to our leader getting caught up in a drug scandal. we never saw him again after that, yet somehow a bunch of the guys in tenjiku got involved with it , myself included. all except for hanma, kisaki, kokonoi and of course, haruchiyo. 

he visited quite frequently while i was in jail. but towards the end of my sentence, he stopped showing up. i was there for about 10 months and when i got out, haru was there waiting for me, but he looked different. he seemed to have grown taller and he actually dyed his hair. plus he carries his guitar on his back all the time now. but i knew it was still my haruchiyo from the way he smiled at me. i could never forget that face.

strange thing was that as soon as i got out, he was asking me to help out in this new band he belonged to. kantou manji. it was lead by his childhood best friend, mikey, and kokonoi and hanma were in it too. so i decided to join, only because the other guys had already made a new band with this no body they met in the jail. 

but if i could turn back time, i would have never ended up helping kantou manji. believe me they were great, probably better than anything else i’d seen, but everyone had changed. mikey had seemed more miserable than ever and hanma had seemed to have lost his mojo. plus kokonoi was never around blondie locks; but for haruchiyo, he just seemed so rebellious now. at first i thought wow, he finally came out of his shell, i’m so happy for him. but with that, he knew way more people, and soon he barely spoke to me at all when we were around other people. of course, when it was just us we’d talk about band, but it was like that was the only thing holding us together, the only way we were associated. 

as well as sanzu not talking to me, it also seemed as though he was going out with a new person all together. haitani rindou was his name, and the two were addicted to each other. at first they were a very public couple, but they didn’t last long due to our his manager, kisaki, not liking the idea of a member of kantou manji dating someone from a rival band. so they kept their relationship a secret with only a few people knowing, but really, they were horrible at hiding their affection for one another. 

plus i barely knew him anymore. he probably still loved cheesecake and he probably loved his new pink hair, even though his roots had been growing out really quick. he use to hate smothering people with affection, but now he and rindou are all over each other, plus there’s also him and hanma making out on stage (which i have no idea if its an act of fan service or pure feeling) which i slightly mind. he probably still respects mikey as much as he did and maybe even more. but he’s got a new style now, rlly a bit too formal for the haru i knew. and i’m sure he stands up for his loved ones still, but i haven’t seen that with my own eyes in a while, since i don’t feel even his love.

in the end, sanzu and i couldn’t find love within each other anymore, nor did we want to. even tho i wish i could’ve, i just couldn’t find it. it was never like we never officially broke up, but we just fell out of love. and i think one day, it just became a mutual thought. because one day, haruchiyo stopped talking to me all together, there was only a sanzu left for the world. shit, i rlly did fall for him.