#offguards

🫶🏽🫂🌹🥹

i deserve roses but

get conversations

of clarifications

and excuses from matrixes

i’ve been on different wavelengths

i’ve been patient

i’m chasing a feeling i get when i

think of the days before

you were dead

Joshua

Joshua

I still think of you

I think of ya

Remember ya

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Do you ever remember your whole life before the tragedy behind the locked brown door that once confined both our vulnerable bodies safely?

before the day you transitioned into a place SO far WITHOUT me?

before the day they turned you to ashes

to smoke

i try to quit because of you

“it’s just weed”

the words of a narcissistic teenager

with sociopathic needs to confuse and torment themselves: