#offdatop

At first I really thought you was it. But to keep it real I knew you wouldnt work. Most of the time I would be the one that got hurt. In my own sick way I thought I deserved that kinda shit. I mean I can walk away, but na. Imma see how much pain I can take. And how it must of felt being on the end of my selfish ass. Im letting you think that I dont know wassup. Its Fucked. Cuz the whole time she thought she was that chik. Oh so slick, so slick she really thought D aint notice shit. Guess what..... Naw Chill D. Let me let her believe that. I can do this a little bit longer to punish myself and help me realize not to jump into that love thang so quick until I respect what it actually feels like to get my heart ripped out from inside and toss my lungs to the side. Then maybe just then I'll give love another try. But first things first I can't love you, you, or you unless I love I first.. But hold up let me handle this one last thing. I know you sitting there thinking I believed every thing you said. I let you think I did. Na yo I actually used you as you thought you was doing to me. Goodlooks, thankyou. But its time for me to try something different see......

Ok I actually just wrote that real time no written down stuff . I spit strictly how I feel from the heart no other way, and nothing is pre thought . I started writing 10:33 Fin10:58

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