#odesta

idk if I’ll ever return to this but I went on an annie-induced-crashout post! mockingjay and wrote what i thought would be a really interesting interaction between finnick and annie post her games

If he wasn’t before, how do you think they’d both react to that sudden switch in dynamic (especially since they’re in 13 and it’s when All Of That Stuff Is Going On even outside of their personal lives)

you’re welcome 💜 and I think that you could argue that it’s canon that he was before but if you are only basing it on canon evidence like a direct statement (of which, to be fair, we have almost none about them anyway!) that argument would be tenuous. I think there’s very heavy implications of it, and my reasoning around it comes from a combo of observations about their behavior towards each other in book and movie canon, particularly the way Annie responds to him, and also my knowledge around this type of situation as a card carrying crazy person. since that reasoning is long and tangential to your question, I’m happy to elaborate on it in a separate post but won’t go off into the weeds here.

if for whatever reason Finnick was not Annie’s primary caretaker before they got to Thirteen, I think it would honestly be catastrophic for their relationship. less so for Finnick, because he’s clearly very fulfilled caring for her, but it would be awful for Annie. if she has not been relying on him as her caretaker (if they weren’t living together, or someone else lived with them and occupied that role) that means first that her primary support person, whoever that is, isn’t there for her to rely on. that’s immensely destabilizing, and she’s been tortured for weeks. she most likely does not have the emotional energy to explain what her needs are and start from square one with Finnick to ensure that he can care for her.

so then, she has two options. he can be doing his best but without her guidance, making potentially things spiral and her worsen at times, or, she can try and teach him how to do it when she is already incredibly drained. either way it would be a large strain on their relationship. I think also something that ableds don’t understand is how much internalized ableism and shame people can experience. if Annie has been feeling that (and judging by how ableist Panem society is, I think it’s safe to assume she has been), and that’s even part of why she hasn’t had Finnick as her primary caretaker, because she’s ashamed or embarrassed or doesn’t want him to see how much she struggles, the emotional toll of her coming to terms with that would also be very severe.

I'm currently trying to work on a fanfic focused on their respective games and then Catching Fire and Mockingjay.

so I drafted this new fic last night and while it has the potential to be Evil ™ because the writing is currently bad I also think it’s kind of an enchanting premise because. disclaimer that I don’t read odesta fic generally speaking but I think sometimes we get so lost in the messiness of it all (rightfully so. because it’s awesome and fun) that we overlook just how in love they are and sidestep some fun creative moments that could come out of that. like Finnick would do anything and everything to make Annie happy. you can’t convince me otherwise. I think she’d do the same! I think he’s just way more uncomfortable with that type of demonstrative affection, so Annie has to show her love a little differently.

anyway the premise of this fic is when Annie gets to Thirteen, we know I write her spitting raging mad and also struggling a lot with her mental health. Finnick feels useless in the face of this because he can help to some extent but she’s been tortured for months, so like. not really. he carries a lot of guilt because of the pain she’s in, and he ends up landing on a singular mission as the only thing he feels like he can do, which is trying to make her happy. but she’s so miserable he’s like man okay. I’m scaling back. I’m just going to try and make her smile. and the fic is a small chronology of his journey attempting that. I think if I fix the writing it will transform from potentially Evil to something as good as 10?, so we’ll see.

P.s: i’m actually kicking and giggling at the party scene when Finnick got jealous & when Annie put Meri in her place when she insulted Finnick at the dinner 🫣 top two of my favorite scenes so far 👌🏻

You read all 33 chapters in one sitting? Are you okay?

Thank you for the support and for loving this story that's so dear to me 🩵🩵🩵!!!!!

I love jealous Finnick (more to come!) specially because in that party he was still confused as to why he felt the way he did towards Annie, but it becomes a turning point for him seeing her dancing and having fun, and supposedly in a date with someone else.