#ocean-thoughts

So what exactly is it, when you said you missed me? Do you miss having someone gullible enough to believe your lies? Do you miss the fake world you created? I can't get myself to believe you miss me, as a person, when so many things were based on lies. And when your actions now, don't show that you really do miss me. So I think that answers it for me.

Truth is, if I think too much I panic. But the thing is, I can hardly think of anything else.

Nothing makes you shut down more than being convinced your feelings are invalid.

But how do you explain you miss someone you talk to daily, but haven't even met yet?

When you feel unimportant and irrelevant, it can mean the world when you become aware someone actually misses you.

Have people around you that build you up, no matter what, instead of bringing you down.

It's strange, how quickly you can get used to something. And when that something suddenly isn't there, even if it's for a little, temporary, it leaves you feeling like something is really missing.

Telling me you still care was just another lie. All of your actions show you don't. It's like I barely exist. When I do, it's only when it's convenient for you. The last time I told you I loved you, you never even said it back. So how am I supposed to believe you even care? How?