#obsessed!r

actually losing your mind if nikki tried to leave town and go write without you.

your entire sense of self is built around loving nikki, and being loved by her, so when she comes to you and says she wants to leave, suddenly there’s a possibility of her leaving you behind.

but nikki would never do that cause she loves you so much and she’s accepted her responsibility 😼🙂‍↕️

in your mind, the most obvious solution is for you to come with. nikki gets to write, you get to keep loving her. everyone wins.

nikki spending weeks looking for a apartment for the two of you, with a good view and nice places around. nikki insisting you pick out furniture together because it’s your home too.

nikki writing at her desk while you lay on the couch nearby because you don’t want to interrupt, but you still want to be close to her.

bringing her water and food and reminding her to get up and stretch or rest because she gets so focused that she forgets to take care of herself until the point where her stomach starts growling, or eyes start getting heavy.

nikki reading chapters to you aloud so she can hear them herself, and also get your reaction.

nikki sometimes getting stuck on chapters, so you offer up terrible scenarios because you’re trying to be helpful.

nikki finishing her book and putting you in her acknowledgments with a little note 🙂‍↕️

idk why but this made me visualize r with one of those leash things that parents have for their kids 😭

nah but fr, being the type of couple that legit is touching each other constantly.

like yk in the hallway of school or at a theme park or something and then there’s always that one couple hugging or leaning against each other or kissing?

that’s you guys 🤣🫵🏻

having absolutely no concept of what is and isn’t appropriate public behavior so if nikki stops for three seconds to look at something in a store, you’re right there, standing too close, holding her purse, offering to buy her whatever she’s looking at.

or following her around, waiting outside when she uses the bathroom (often asking to come inside with her), holding onto her jacket or sleeve just so she doesn’t get too far away.

nikki learning the art of continuing a conversation with someone while redirecting you from doing something embarrassing. she could be mid-conversation about something and she’s simultaneously pushing your face away because you keep trying to kiss her.

nikki knew you hadn’t been sleeping well. she could see it in your eyes, the way you held yourself, the way your hands shook whenever they reached out to touch her.

she didn’t know exactly how much sleep a person could go without, but she knew you didn’t have much time left before you probably started getting some sort of psychological problem.

which is why she was currently trying to coax you into bed.

“just lay down for a minute. please, baby.”

“i’m not tired,” you whined out, though you climbed onto her bed anyways. “i don’t want to sleep. what if i sleep and you’re gone? are you gonna leave me?”

deep breath, nikki.

“no, i’m not going to leave you,” she murmured to you, crawling up beside you and sitting with her back resting against her bedframe, “but you haven’t been sleeping, and that’s dangerous. c’mere, lay down on me.”

you stared at her a second, reluctant, until nikki placed a hand on the back of your head and began to guide it down to her lap.

“i don’t want to sleep,” you mumbled, eyes closing against your own free will. whether you wanted to sleep or not, your brain and your body craved the rest.

“it’s okay,” nikki said, her hand beginning to rub slow, gentle, relaxing circles along your back. “i’m not going anywhere, okay?”

“don’t want you to go anywhere,” you mumbled again, head nuzzling slowly against her thigh. you let out a low, slightly weak grumble of what might’ve been refusal.

“i promise, im not,” she comforted. finally, then, is when she felt your body loosen against her. no longer tense, alert, but giving into what nikki assumed must’ve been pure exhaustion.

her hand continued to stroke your back, along your spine, even though you were fast asleep now. you looked peaceful, now. beautiful, even. calm and relaxed, in a way nikki hadn’t seen in so long.

this is what she’d wanted. to be with you, to hold you, to take care of you. she couldn’t ask for anything better.