It's around that time to pay for utilities on your New York apartment, but this time you leave for it with a heavy heart. The last time you came to do so, you met with Vriska, declared your attraction, and started a relationship—only to have her killed just a single day later. The memory weighs on you significantly, and after a good deal of coaxing by Aradia, you manage it.
She wants to come with you, but you know this is something that you need to face alone.
At least this time around.
It's a way of coming to terms with what happened, of finding some kind of inner peace with yourself, of processing the pain and the anger in a way that will allow you the room for remembrance, for grief, and for the beginnings of acceptance. You haven't really had time for grief, with the life-threatening assault from all sides throwing you into disarray for many of the subsequent weeks. Now is a good time to pull yourself away from that and find a fresh start, for everything.
And then, after that, you can think about the right step forward. You'll probably sell the apartment; too many bad memories there, and the loss of Mother only amplifies it. A little time away, too, to visit your grandfather might go a long way at establishing some healing.
