#o lucifer

When will it end?

The sun rises

But it's not like the rest

I'm stuck in a limbo state of darkness

To where the sun does not shine

I can no longer find the light

Trapped in this state of agony

The nights feel longer

Time moves faster

And yet I can still feel myself breaking

Or am I already broken?

My body feels like it's shutting down

Anxiety leaving it's scars in my veins

Only the use of alcohol and substance to try and numb these pains

Post traumatic screams, leaving it's stains in my pillows

But I can no longer shed any tears

My sense of morality, burned away

When will it stop?

I'm on a rollercoaster

It's in moments where I find a place to be happy, smile, and laugh

Are these my last hours of life?

Trying to make the best of what I have left?

I don't wanna be here anymore.

I see flashing marks, each moment I blink

I tense up, every moment I think

I grit my teeth, each time I breathe