#ntbk

i love love knowing things about people. little things. details. their favourite colour. fav piece of jewellery. what gives them hope. what they dont like about themselves. their inner worlds. what their story is like. what their childhood was like. if their mother didn't just love them but also liked them for who they are. i wonder what their hearts are like. what scares them. hidden things. raw. real. small things. habits. the chaos. the mess. what makes them falter. imperfections. raw uneven chaotic beauty. i want to know what they love. what they're good at. their favourite thing about themselves. what they're waiting for. what their heart beats for.

dude dude dude. nothing can make u feel at peace. nothing can fill ur void. except Allah. so why are you here? dopamine never fixed anything. girl go get ur Quran. go talk to ur Rabb.

I drag my heart with me. my heart; heavy and soaking wet. has it been raining? it's cold and heavy. I twist it, i wring it. my heart twisted and taut in my tired hands, but it's still drenched

this is my home. it's my hut. my cottage. i keep leaving pieces of my heart everywhere. will you fly away? here, i got a cookie for you 🍪 is it poisoned? I dont know. don't fly away. dont stay either.